"She Says When She Feels Like Crying She Starts Laughing..."
Zara? You know I promised you I'd be on to-night?
Oh, I'm so sorry, but I just--have not had a good day. At all, really. And I don't think I really want to exist to-night, I think I'm just going to die quietly in my room, because really that's easier and all I can bear to do.
I saw my new therapist to-day, and just now finished filling out the twelve forms she gave me to complete, and it looks like I actually do have social anxiety on top of the eating disorder, and I'm just so tired. I passed for OCD, though, and that's nice, but-- I don't know.
I really don't know.
And I just--nothing.
So I think maybe to-night I'll be up in bed hiding under the covers. I'm so sorry.
Oh, I'm so sorry, but I just--have not had a good day. At all, really. And I don't think I really want to exist to-night, I think I'm just going to die quietly in my room, because really that's easier and all I can bear to do.
I saw my new therapist to-day, and just now finished filling out the twelve forms she gave me to complete, and it looks like I actually do have social anxiety on top of the eating disorder, and I'm just so tired. I passed for OCD, though, and that's nice, but-- I don't know.
I really don't know.
And I just--nothing.
So I think maybe to-night I'll be up in bed hiding under the covers. I'm so sorry.