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psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2005-09-28 06:04 pm
psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2005-09-28 06:04 pm
"Now I Battle What I Most Adore..."
Dilemma.
One of my gentlemen at work, Norm, always asks me for a hug when I'm in. Now, I'm not technically supposed to hug any of my gentlemen, but I always do anyway, because I'm a wicked little girl who doesn't do what she's told. So I'm not supposed to. But I always do anyway.
And to-day he kissed me.
I am being an ass, aren't I? *frets* But it wasn't really a friendly sort of kiss. Or. I mean. It just didn't feel right. It was actually a little scary, and a little embarrassing. But I didn't say anything about it, because I was surprised. So I didn't say anything. But now I'm not really sure what to do.
Because I see him every time I go in, and he always asks for a hug, and I can't possibly--I mean, I'd feel like such a horrible person if I didn't...! But I'm not supposed to anyway, so I can't tell one of the nurses or Linda and ask what to do, because I've pretty much invited it on myself. I mean, it's my own fault for doing what I was told not to. But I don't want him to do it again. It's just--Norm's not as nice as, say, Daniel. If Daniel kissed me it would be utterly platonic and because he's fond of me as I'm fond of him. But I'm a little scared of Norm anyway.
Gah. >_<
I don't know what to dooooo. I mean, really. I just--can't think of anything to do.
One of my gentlemen at work, Norm, always asks me for a hug when I'm in. Now, I'm not technically supposed to hug any of my gentlemen, but I always do anyway, because I'm a wicked little girl who doesn't do what she's told. So I'm not supposed to. But I always do anyway.
And to-day he kissed me.
I am being an ass, aren't I? *frets* But it wasn't really a friendly sort of kiss. Or. I mean. It just didn't feel right. It was actually a little scary, and a little embarrassing. But I didn't say anything about it, because I was surprised. So I didn't say anything. But now I'm not really sure what to do.
Because I see him every time I go in, and he always asks for a hug, and I can't possibly--I mean, I'd feel like such a horrible person if I didn't...! But I'm not supposed to anyway, so I can't tell one of the nurses or Linda and ask what to do, because I've pretty much invited it on myself. I mean, it's my own fault for doing what I was told not to. But I don't want him to do it again. It's just--Norm's not as nice as, say, Daniel. If Daniel kissed me it would be utterly platonic and because he's fond of me as I'm fond of him. But I'm a little scared of Norm anyway.
Gah. >_<
I don't know what to dooooo. I mean, really. I just--can't think of anything to do.