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psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2008-09-24 11:02 pm
psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2008-09-24 11:02 pm
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"I am Exactly What I am..."
Oh man, I am so unbelievably depressed right now. It's honestly been months since I felt this crushingly soullessly despairing. My whole insides feel like they got scooped out with one of those little metal half-moons you use to get the seeds out of pumpkins.
I've spent most of the last two days crying. Also, I really don't think I'm smart enough to be trying to do this whole pre-med thing. I think I need to suck it up and admit that I might not be as happy being, you know, an English teacher, but at least I'd be competent at it.
I really don't want to go to lab to-morrow. The boy who just joined our lap group calls me 'the crazy girl', and even Alice's being so awesome does not overcome the fact that he makes me feel like crawling under a rock and staying there for-ever. I am so glad there are only three weeks of lab left; it means I don't have to kill myself with a broken gel tray if I can just make it that long.
Maybe Alice and I will have other classes together in the spring. I should find out what her POE is.
In the meantime, I think I'd better go to bed, because I am just about completely out of cope for this week, and that's a pure fact.
I've spent most of the last two days crying. Also, I really don't think I'm smart enough to be trying to do this whole pre-med thing. I think I need to suck it up and admit that I might not be as happy being, you know, an English teacher, but at least I'd be competent at it.
I really don't want to go to lab to-morrow. The boy who just joined our lap group calls me 'the crazy girl', and even Alice's being so awesome does not overcome the fact that he makes me feel like crawling under a rock and staying there for-ever. I am so glad there are only three weeks of lab left; it means I don't have to kill myself with a broken gel tray if I can just make it that long.
Maybe Alice and I will have other classes together in the spring. I should find out what her POE is.
In the meantime, I think I'd better go to bed, because I am just about completely out of cope for this week, and that's a pure fact.
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Also, that boy is rude and stupid. It is totally okay to tell him so. Well, okay, the stupid bit is a bit rude, but he is being inappropriate for class.