I'm sure this is just some kind of weird personal mindtrick, but every time my dosage is upped I feel like I'm "bad" (just as when it goes down, I'm being "good"!) which is kind of nonlogical but nevertheless pretty much the way I feel about it.

Oh, honey. :/ I do know how this feels. You just have to keep telling yourself that you have no control over how you feel, and if you need a higher dosage, it's because it will help you feel better. And it may not be permanent.

At one point, I was taking four times the recommended dosage of my meds (yes, by my doctor's advice) because I was going through an incredibly bad part of life. But as the stress lessened, they brought down my dose. It's not a punishment for not feeling well enough, hon, trust me - and if it helps you get through this stage, try to see it as a good thing.

It's like reaching for something on a high shelf; sometimes you can get it on your own, but sometimes, you need a step stool to boost you up.