"If the End is Right, it Justifies the Beans!"

I feel like a very small child. I'm wearing my hair in pigtails - it's finally long enough to do that. I have two of my scarves tied on the ends of the pigtails. The beautiful Chinese (?) one with tassels I bought in Bethlehem and the lovely one with blue palm trees that Kasey or Emily gave me. It's so long. My blue hair is growing out, so I've got to get it re-bleached. And I'm redying it purple because, bloody hell, no one can mistake purple for green. It is so irritating all the people who point and laugh: "Did you know your hair is green?" Of course, the ones who can tell it's blue say, "Are you feeling blue today?"

People can be so stupid.

Bought Into the Woods the soundtrack with BERNADETTE PETERS!! God, I love her. I think she's better in the version we taped from TN, though. But still. Bernadette Peters. I don't care, for she is Bernadette Peters. And the CD booklet has pictures! Fanservice, fanservice!

People compare me more and more to Satchel from Get Fuzzy.

Is it weird that I read the Times? Do people have to act like it's weird?

The other thing that's funny is, when a movie is rated R for sex or language, nobody seems to care if I see it. But if it's rated for violence, people give me a look. Even people who don't know I'm a pacifist do it. I don't know, I should expect it, but the gentle way they do it, just as though it were upsetting for me particularly. Like, anyone else could watch a violent movie, but I'm Soujin, and with Soujin, you have to be careful about violent movies. It doesn't make a lot of sense, unless I exude this innocence?

I still feel like a little kid. Like I was eight or something. As such, I am hoping against hope someone will ruffle my hair.

"I Wish... More Than Anything..."

Mum says I finally get new glasses. Thank God. These ones make my ears bleed. And one lens is cracked. And they're also rubbing the skin off my nose. O_o Apparently I should say when this sort of thing happens. Well, at least I get new ones soon.

Still feel terribly young. Even more now than before. Lord, I wish I had someone to cling onto. Somebody tall.

I seem to amuse people a lot. I wonder why.

tairaworld and Waen both giggled all through "I Know Things Now" and "Giants in the Sky", and I still can't really tell why. Except Mum laughs too.

Feeling innocent now, too. x_x