"If the End is Right, it Justifies the Beans!"

[psalm_onethirtyone]

I feel like a very small child. I'm wearing my hair in pigtails - it's finally long enough to do that. I have two of my scarves tied on the ends of the pigtails. The beautiful Chinese (?) one with tassels I bought in Bethlehem and the lovely one with blue palm trees that Kasey or Emily gave me. It's so long. My blue hair is growing out, so I've got to get it re-bleached. And I'm redying it purple because, bloody hell, no one can mistake purple for green. It is so irritating all the people who point and laugh: "Did you know your hair is green?" Of course, the ones who can tell it's blue say, "Are you feeling blue today?"

People can be so stupid.

Bought Into the Woods the soundtrack with BERNADETTE PETERS!! God, I love her. I think she's better in the version we taped from TN, though. But still. Bernadette Peters. I don't care, for she is Bernadette Peters. And the CD booklet has pictures! Fanservice, fanservice!

People compare me more and more to Satchel from Get Fuzzy.

Is it weird that I read the Times? Do people have to act like it's weird?

The other thing that's funny is, when a movie is rated R for sex or language, nobody seems to care if I see it. But if it's rated for violence, people give me a look. Even people who don't know I'm a pacifist do it. I don't know, I should expect it, but the gentle way they do it, just as though it were upsetting for me particularly. Like, anyone else could watch a violent movie, but I'm Soujin, and with Soujin, you have to be careful about violent movies. It doesn't make a lot of sense, unless I exude this innocence?

I still feel like a little kid. Like I was eight or something. As such, I am hoping against hope someone will ruffle my hair.

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[memise.livejournal.com]

*ruffles your hair* Bad to feel like a small child? Or good? I always feel good, in a slightly guilty way, because I know I should act grown up and all, but it's so nice and happy and innocent to feel like a little kid. What about you? How do you feel, indignant or bouncy or young? Young, I think. Is it bad?

It's the opposite for me, with the violent movie thing. I mean, not with giving odd looks for me watching something or other, but everyone thinks I'm violent and sadistic or something. I'm really quite a pacifist. One of my friends always gives me a pointed look when there's something about blood, and says I'm violent and all, but I hate violence.

And I think it's really stupid when people comment about your appearance as if you haven't noticed it before. I mean, I am I and you are you and I think we all notice what we look like, especially when one does something to oneself intentionally. When a person highlights her hair in a pink highlighter, people should not look at her hair and say, "Um. . . . ?" and point at the hair as if it needs to be broken to her gently. Or perhaps they are simply oddened by the state of the hair, and should ask, "Why is your hair pink?" instead of seeming afraid to bring it up.

. . . And I am babbling about things I should not be babbling about. I apologize. Hello! and goodbye, for now.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*clings to you* Squee!

Bad to feel like a small child? Or good? I always feel good, in a slightly guilty way, because I know I should act grown up and all, but it's so nice and happy and innocent to feel like a little kid. What about you? How do you feel, indignant or bouncy or young? Young, I think. Is it bad?

It is good, really. Mostly, I have to be the grown-up one, because Waen is my Little Sister. Even though she doesn't act like it. I feel happy and tousled and as though I've just woken up after a long time sleeping, only without the guilt of that. It's nice.

It's the opposite for me, with the violent movie thing. I mean, not with giving odd looks for me watching something or other, but everyone thinks I'm violent and sadistic or something. I'm really quite a pacifist. One of my friends always gives me a pointed look when there's something about blood, and says I'm violent and all, but I hate violence.

*blinks* It is odd that people should do that. I really haven't gotten that impression at all from you. *pets* You never seemed the violent type to me. Me, I am pathetic. I feel sick watching Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail, which is quite pathetic.

And I think it's really stupid when people comment about your appearance as if you haven't noticed it before. I mean, I am I and you are you and I think we all notice what we look like, especially when one does something to oneself intentionally. When a person highlights her hair in a pink highlighter, people should not look at her hair and say, "Um. . . . ?" and point at the hair as if it needs to be broken to her gently. Or perhaps they are simply oddened by the state of the hair, and should ask, "Why is your hair pink?" instead of seeming afraid to bring it up.

You're SO right. I just don't understand why people act as though you don't know what you've done to your own hair. Or whatever. Hair does not turn blue overnight. O_o Or anything else, really.

. . . And I am babbling about things I should not be babbling about. I apologize. Hello! and goodbye, for now.

I love listening to you babble. Please to not stop. It makes me feel all fuzzy that you care enough to even babble about what I post.