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psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2005-05-16 09:09 am
psalm_onethirtyone) wrote2005-05-16 09:09 am
"Honesty Left Me..."
Feeling much worse. Treadmilled, to see if some exercise would help, which it doesn't seem to have; called off work. Guilty.
Have developed a cough, now, which agitates my throat.
The only good thing is this means it can't be something I did to myself. I would feel too guilty to manage if I'd made myself ill. I used to. In school. I don't remember, I only remember that I went to the nurse's office all the time, and finally she let me help her with silly little things all during the lunch hour, but I always thought she was just doing that. Mum says she did it because I was getting teased, and she was hiding me. She says I made myself sick all the time, about the time I'd have to eat lunch, sometimes earlier, and everybody knew it was psychological and whatnot, and. I did it to get out of things, you see.
So I thought that maybe because of the play, and being so stressed, I was making myself ill to get out of things. But I don't think I could make myself have a sore throat, even though I could do dizziness. So it must be real. I think it is. I hope it is.
Now to lie down.
Have developed a cough, now, which agitates my throat.
The only good thing is this means it can't be something I did to myself. I would feel too guilty to manage if I'd made myself ill. I used to. In school. I don't remember, I only remember that I went to the nurse's office all the time, and finally she let me help her with silly little things all during the lunch hour, but I always thought she was just doing that. Mum says she did it because I was getting teased, and she was hiding me. She says I made myself sick all the time, about the time I'd have to eat lunch, sometimes earlier, and everybody knew it was psychological and whatnot, and. I did it to get out of things, you see.
So I thought that maybe because of the play, and being so stressed, I was making myself ill to get out of things. But I don't think I could make myself have a sore throat, even though I could do dizziness. So it must be real. I think it is. I hope it is.
Now to lie down.
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What happened to my complete sentences?
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Had some soup. Found a couple of cans of my nice reduced-calorie reduced-sodium Healthy Choice kind in the back of the cabinet.
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Good girl. *pets* See? Doing as I tell you is a good thing.
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^__^ So it is! Clever Zara2. *loveson*
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With a surprise in it!no subject
A surprise? Ohnoes! The suspense!no subject
Bwahahaha.