"To Make the World a Little Golder..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Oh, and here's the medical bulletin for to-day:

The abscess under my arm has come back for the third time, so I have to see a doctor about it.

Sleep = not going very well; Sunday night five hours, Monday six, last night six (from five o'clock to eleven). My insomnia is murderous. I wish I could take a sleeping med or aught.

Feet = better. I have a pair of shoes I'm required to wear for treadmilling, and, reluctantly, I am. ...Don't say anything, Lillie.

~~~

After a great deal of hysterics yesterday, it was decided I will have to cut down so I am only working three hours a day, instead of five, because I am failing at school. I need to be on Algebra Two, and I'm still doing Algebra One; and I'm definitely failing astronomy. Also we are not even halfway through the school year yet.

The other reason for my not working so much is because at this point I am working alone. Linda leaves me alone, and I'm running three activities by myself, and I really can't do it anymore. I've joked before that I'm just like someone who gets paid, except I don't get paid, but actually that's true, and I can't do it. Is breaking me. So Mum said she would telephone Linda, because I am terrified of confrontation, and tell her so.

I should probably eat breakfast now, but I really, really, really feel too self-squicked to do so. Maybe I will go treadmill more.

Comments

[bewareofitalics]

*doesn't say anything!* *doesn't say anything about eating, either, but looks* *and also hugs*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugclings*

[bewareofitalics]

*continues with the hugclinging* (Are you gonna be on AIM tonight, by the way? I want to talk to you at least once before I leave!)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*continues with the reciprocating and sticking to* (Do you want me to be? I could be. But to-morrow more likely than to-night, since I've promised to telephone Miss Zara to-night, and we usually talk anywhere from an hour to three.)

[bewareofitalics]

*and, yep* (Whatever works for you!)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

(...Half an hour or so?)

[bewareofitalics]

(Sure!)

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*snugs* I just called you, but I didn't get you; expect you are busy.

I am, however, going to try and call you weekly from now on, unless you mind terribly.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Follow the same rule as for answering comments on hysterical posts; telephone calls received directly after are liking to be answering with great lacking in judgement.

Okay. I don't mind. I love you.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Love thee back. *hugs*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I I I I have no idea what to say, but--oh, thankyouthankyou so incredibly impossibly much. I. I mean. Oh, my goodness. Oh, my goodness. I--

*clingstoandcriesbecauseshehasthemostwonderfulfriendsintheworldanddoesn'tdeserveitandoh,oh,oh*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

you do so. *huuuuuuuugsandcuddlesandsnugsandloves*

[nowgoesquickly.livejournal.com]

*hugs you and wishes to make you feel better*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugsback and apolgises*

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*pounceclings* I love you.

Why can't you take a sleeping pill?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*lovesondeeply* Me too.

...&c &c. Although she said to-day if it's really bad, I can maybe try. But she still doesn't really want me to.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*clingsomg*

...That was before we spoke, I swear. Although as someone who tried sleeping pills for the first time ever last semester (and they didn't help, but that's beside the point) and for much the same reason, I do think that trying cannot hurt. There's a point, I think, where you just need to sleep, no matter what. It's no long solution, but really, sometimes the short term is more important.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know it was! *loves* Yes. Well, I might. But I think right now everything depends on whether or not the psychiatrist recommends meds, because I suppose one can't mix everything; and the insomnia could be psychosomatic because I've been feeling bad. I kind of have a history of doing that, getting psychosomatic problems when I'm unhappy or scared. So if I end up getting anti-depressants and they fix the sleeping problem, that would solve that problem.

So it all hinges on to-morrow. Suspense zomg. >:D Dun de dun dunnn.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

--Well, don't forget that depression causes sleeping problems, too. So it's all very likely that it's not psycosomatic and also that tomorrow will help.

*hugpets* Good luck! ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

--Oh, I didn't know-- Then that might be it, too, then. So yes.

Thank you so much. *hugclinghugs*

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

--Oh, yes! Insomnia, hypersomnia, or both. So definitely be sure to mention that to the doctor. Anti-depressants can take a while to work properly, so there's the possibility that he'll prescribe something short term anyway. ...but I guess you'll see. *hugstightly*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Okay. I will. I have an awful lot of things to remember to tell and bring, but I imagine I will not forget anything important. Okay...! Thank you.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

You won't. Don't worry.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥

[sansenmage.livejournal.com]

*Huggles*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugcling*