"If I'm Not There on Time I'll Send My Emissary..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Does anyone on my flist or otherwise who has had experience with depression/SAD/darkness-sadness know what you should do about it? Because I'm taking my anti-depressants regularly, but this last week has been a nightmare. As soon as it gets dark I'm ending up crying uncontrollably, and if it's not that it's abject misery, or intense loneliness or the overwhelming conviction that I suck at everything and there's no reason to like me and I don't know why I even bother staying online to get in people's way. Which may or may not be true.

It's just--I really, really hate it, it's horrible. And I was wondering whether anybody has any ideas of how to deal with this or what I can do to make it ease up, because I can't be around people like this, swear to God I can't, and until it clears up I'm not getting online, because honestly nobody wants to deal with me or talk to me like this. It's just one thing after another and nothing I've done makes it go away, and I don't want to be like this. I don't like me like this.

So--yes. If anybody knows what to do. I would really, really appreciate some advice.

(it also makes me incredibly short-tempered, which is not fun either, because when I get mad I scream and cry. augh help.)

Comments

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I hate lights. >_>

I am eating and taking my vitamins, although the eating is somewhat erratic and weird. I've been having some body issues lately.

Probably. :/

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*jabs* If the dark is depressing you, turn on lights.

Go away, issues. You need vitamins.

*hugs tight*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Augh but they get in my eyes and drive me crazy augh.

Probably. Also probably regular eating. Unfortunately I care for neither at the moment. >_< Didn't manage to get around to breakfast until two to-day, until six Friday, and eight Wednesday.

*rests'gainst*