"If I'm Not There on Time I'll Send My Emissary..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Does anyone on my flist or otherwise who has had experience with depression/SAD/darkness-sadness know what you should do about it? Because I'm taking my anti-depressants regularly, but this last week has been a nightmare. As soon as it gets dark I'm ending up crying uncontrollably, and if it's not that it's abject misery, or intense loneliness or the overwhelming conviction that I suck at everything and there's no reason to like me and I don't know why I even bother staying online to get in people's way. Which may or may not be true.

It's just--I really, really hate it, it's horrible. And I was wondering whether anybody has any ideas of how to deal with this or what I can do to make it ease up, because I can't be around people like this, swear to God I can't, and until it clears up I'm not getting online, because honestly nobody wants to deal with me or talk to me like this. It's just one thing after another and nothing I've done makes it go away, and I don't want to be like this. I don't like me like this.

So--yes. If anybody knows what to do. I would really, really appreciate some advice.

(it also makes me incredibly short-tempered, which is not fun either, because when I get mad I scream and cry. augh help.)

Comments

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

YAY! How are your roommates? have you met them yet?

*eeeeeeeees* I think it would. I love Hill Church. I've been driving that way when I come home. I will! I have a shiny new aluminum water bottle with BUTTERFLIES onnit.

I hope so. Augh. ;_____;

Yes! Very much! ^___^ --I like customers...! ^__^

BUT THEY'RE CALORIES! But I will try to do better. >_> for you! you can be my Dulcinea and I'll eat the windmills for you. ...Or something. Yes. I will try to eat and to keep track. XD

You have a whole commenful! ...ohhh, right, that thing. *shifty eyes* I should tell you again how much I love you. Heart!

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

I want to keep them! Met two, third is MIA. We all went to our orientation, had lunch, and got books/ID cards. It's--working out really well, actually. I guess we'll see.

Eat those windmills, you!

Twopointnineninenine.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yay! That's terrific. Are they nice? What are they like? I'm so glad you're getting along and all is good. ^__________^

I WILL! I'll eat the impossible dream!

Less than three!