"I Thought We'd Be Simple Together..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

You know what's kind of sad? Every since the doctor doubled my meds, I've stopped crying randomly all over the place. I can focus and get my work done in a timely fashion (unless I purposely procrastinate, but. :P). I can cope on less sleep--I had six hours Sunday night and last night about the same, and I feel fine, it was easy to get up in the morning. I feel peaceful and able to think ahead and pretty much in control of what's going on.

So basically I feel like a normal person, I feel like me again, I feel really good.

The sad part is that Mama doesn't get paid until Friday, so she can't give me money until then, and my scrip runs out to-morrow. I'm cutting back down to one pill a day so I can stretch them out until Thursday, but I'm pretty much fucked. And it's sad because this is such a nice feeling. And I'm going to miss it, is all.

I mean, I'll probably go right back to it once I get my refill, and it's only going to be a few days, but usually going off meds when I've been on them makes me really really sick, physically as well as mentally. So that's depressing.

Probably means I should take advantage of this while it's still here. I wonder how much I can get done to-day. :D

Comments

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Is there anyone you have there who could loan you the money? I've loaned for psych meds before. Well, given, because I hate people (who aren't my sister) owing me money. But the idea's the same!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I think it's going to be >40 dollars, though, which I would not borrow from anyone.

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Maybe you could borrow bits of it from various people? I'd paypal you some, if it would get there in time; your meds are good for you.

(er, that's the "will" form of would, like, if you allow me to.)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I just borrowed it off mhari, because evidently if you've known someone a few months shy of six years, you feel like less of a total jerk for loaning money off her.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

BUT ONLY SLIGHTLY.

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Silly! You're not a jerk for needing something and letting people help you get it!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

;_______;

Really. If you were in the same situation, tell me you wouldn't feel guilty.

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

... I would. But it's a silly guilt, at least so far as I see it. Because friends are there to help each other, including in cases like this. *hug* I'm sorry if I made you feel worse by calling you silly and stuff >.>;;;

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

No, no, it's okay. <333 I'm just saying. I can't really help the guilt. XD