"I Thought We'd Be Simple Together..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

You know what's kind of sad? Every since the doctor doubled my meds, I've stopped crying randomly all over the place. I can focus and get my work done in a timely fashion (unless I purposely procrastinate, but. :P). I can cope on less sleep--I had six hours Sunday night and last night about the same, and I feel fine, it was easy to get up in the morning. I feel peaceful and able to think ahead and pretty much in control of what's going on.

So basically I feel like a normal person, I feel like me again, I feel really good.

The sad part is that Mama doesn't get paid until Friday, so she can't give me money until then, and my scrip runs out to-morrow. I'm cutting back down to one pill a day so I can stretch them out until Thursday, but I'm pretty much fucked. And it's sad because this is such a nice feeling. And I'm going to miss it, is all.

I mean, I'll probably go right back to it once I get my refill, and it's only going to be a few days, but usually going off meds when I've been on them makes me really really sick, physically as well as mentally. So that's depressing.

Probably means I should take advantage of this while it's still here. I wonder how much I can get done to-day. :D

Comments

[the-chloroplast.livejournal.com]

Awww. I'll try to keep you sane, heartling. Just try to keep reminding yourself (I know it's hard) that it's mostly all your subconscious doing nasty things and that the world is still a nice place. We're all rooting for you!

And by "we" I mean me and the voices, because I can't speak for anyone else, but I'm sure they're all rooting for you too!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Well, I mean, I can tell myself that all I want, but it's not going to change the fact that the bottom will feel like it's fallen out of the world.