"I Thought We'd Be Simple Together..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

You know what's kind of sad? Every since the doctor doubled my meds, I've stopped crying randomly all over the place. I can focus and get my work done in a timely fashion (unless I purposely procrastinate, but. :P). I can cope on less sleep--I had six hours Sunday night and last night about the same, and I feel fine, it was easy to get up in the morning. I feel peaceful and able to think ahead and pretty much in control of what's going on.

So basically I feel like a normal person, I feel like me again, I feel really good.

The sad part is that Mama doesn't get paid until Friday, so she can't give me money until then, and my scrip runs out to-morrow. I'm cutting back down to one pill a day so I can stretch them out until Thursday, but I'm pretty much fucked. And it's sad because this is such a nice feeling. And I'm going to miss it, is all.

I mean, I'll probably go right back to it once I get my refill, and it's only going to be a few days, but usually going off meds when I've been on them makes me really really sick, physically as well as mentally. So that's depressing.

Probably means I should take advantage of this while it's still here. I wonder how much I can get done to-day. :D

Comments

[erinpuff]

*hugs* Could I PayPal you the money today and have your mom pay me back when she can? It's not fair for you to have to not feel as well as you could because of when your mom's payday is. E-mail me (erinkmaher@gmail.com) or send me a message on Facebook or something.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

I would call your doctor and ask if s/he has any samples s/he can give you to get you through until Monday. Doctors generally have samples, and do not approve of patients going on and off meds.

(My NP gives me about three weeks' of free samples every two months; it's not insignificant price-wise.)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Is there anyone you have there who could loan you the money? I've loaned for psych meds before. Well, given, because I hate people (who aren't my sister) owing me money. But the idea's the same!

[softerthansound.livejournal.com]

I'm jealous! Wish I could function on six hours of sleep. ♥

[mhari.livejournal.com]

What they said. <333

[raanve]

I agree that you ought to let your doc know - they probably have samples, and will want you to maintain your dosage, especially if it's working so well!

[josiana.livejournal.com]

;__; Um, I don't have any new and creative suggestions, but like everyone has said, I'm sure your doctor will be willing to help.

I hope you're going to be okay.

[the-chloroplast.livejournal.com]

Awww. I'll try to keep you sane, heartling. Just try to keep reminding yourself (I know it's hard) that it's mostly all your subconscious doing nasty things and that the world is still a nice place. We're all rooting for you!

And by "we" I mean me and the voices, because I can't speak for anyone else, but I'm sure they're all rooting for you too!