"I Thought We'd Be Simple Together..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

You know what's kind of sad? Every since the doctor doubled my meds, I've stopped crying randomly all over the place. I can focus and get my work done in a timely fashion (unless I purposely procrastinate, but. :P). I can cope on less sleep--I had six hours Sunday night and last night about the same, and I feel fine, it was easy to get up in the morning. I feel peaceful and able to think ahead and pretty much in control of what's going on.

So basically I feel like a normal person, I feel like me again, I feel really good.

The sad part is that Mama doesn't get paid until Friday, so she can't give me money until then, and my scrip runs out to-morrow. I'm cutting back down to one pill a day so I can stretch them out until Thursday, but I'm pretty much fucked. And it's sad because this is such a nice feeling. And I'm going to miss it, is all.

I mean, I'll probably go right back to it once I get my refill, and it's only going to be a few days, but usually going off meds when I've been on them makes me really really sick, physically as well as mentally. So that's depressing.

Probably means I should take advantage of this while it's still here. I wonder how much I can get done to-day. :D

Comments

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

I would call your doctor and ask if s/he has any samples s/he can give you to get you through until Monday. Doctors generally have samples, and do not approve of patients going on and off meds.

(My NP gives me about three weeks' of free samples every two months; it's not insignificant price-wise.)

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

*Friday

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I don't know how to reach him. :/ He comes here to visit once monthly and the rest of the time he lives far away, and my last psych charged phone consultation if I called, and our insurance doesn't cover him.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

Gah. That's really unfortunate. Are you seeing him through some school health services or separately?

I know I can call about refills without getting charged.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yeahh this.

I don't knowww. Anyway, I don't have his phone number, it's weird.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

That is weird. Well, I hope it goes okay this time, but it might be a good idea to talk to him next time about how to handle this kind of situation if it comes up again.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yeahh. >_>