"I Am a Silken Stocking Run..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

SO I. Made what may simultaneously be the wisest and most annoying choice of my college career: I changed my major. I am now a muddy little piggy religion major. :D

This is really good because now I don't have to take Bio III, Frontiers of Bio, and a bunch of other classes that are mandatory for the bio major but not mandatory for med school. It cuts out a lot of expectations as well. Also, med schools like students with non-bio majors. I'll be able to do study abroad, which hitherto was not really a viable option. I'll be able to take Rural Healthcare classes, which hitherto was not a viable option. I'll be able to take all the religion classes I want! And I don't have to switch advisors, because I already have a religion professor as my general advisor; all I have to do is ask him to be my major advisor, and change my major advisor to my general advisor, which is apparently a single form.

This is really going to make my life hard because I will have to take the MCAT after senior year, not the end of junior. Also I will have to take a sort of bio-III-esque class prior to going to med school. Also I will spend the next four years explaining to people that I am going to be a doctor, not a priest, for reals.

So. Hopefully it should be obvious why this a good choice. I am so happy. I feel freed and excited and mmmmmm.

Also it's Pride Week, and I think it's a really good Pride Week so far. We're finishing up with a drag ball on Saturday, which will be fun, not least because Phil wants us to try and make him look like a girl. Luckily, Mama gave me all this makeup before I went to school which I have not even touched because I don't wear makeup, so we will have ample resources for covering up his persistent five o'clock shadow.

I just want to dance everywhere. I like me! I really like me. I like what life looks like. I like my polyromantic bisexual loose-limbed dark-eyed barefoot fat dancing self. I just want to sing everywhere I go. And Nick smiled at me a lot Tuesday night; he has the most gorgeous smile. I don't know how to explain this, except that I feel so full of love for everyone, I feel like welcoming everything that comes, and I feel that I have the right to be tickled pink and filled with joy when a boy with a beautiful smile sends it my way on a Tuesday night. I have a right to myself as a pretty girl and it's all right to enjoy myself and life and the people around me. And I do. And I wish I could scrapbook all the smiles I've ever gotten, how uniquely beautiful they all are, and how much I love them, in the moment and in the past. Mmmmsmiling.

To-morrow I am going to wear the yoke-and-ruffle skirt that makes me feel gorgeous.

Comments

[reconditarmonia.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥!

[blindmadness.livejournal.com]

This post makes me smile. I'm glad you're happy. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I love you, Majajaja.

[(Anonymous)]

you don't know me, i stumbled across your blog because of wefeelfine.org
but i just wanted that reading this post was really uplifting on a particularly shitty day.
i'm glad that you had the courage to change your life and i'm glad that you feel beautiful. everyone should.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥! It is my life's mission to tell women that they're beautiful. It gets me a lot of funny looks. :D

[snowyofthenight.livejournal.com]

*loves on* I don't automatically thing religion major = priest! I actually considered it for about twelve seconds before I remembered where I was going to school and that they offer about three religion classes a semester because everyone's an atheist liberal hippy.

[tinyammmy]

Ahahaha. *dies*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Ahaha! We are nice enough to have more like six or seven, and I can always find at least one I'm interested in. They're just so cool, religion is so cool.

[bewareofitalics]

*snuggles* Sounds like a good choice! And what are you gonna wear for the drag ball? :D

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I. Am going to wear one of my button-down dress shirts and my nice green tie.

[bewareofitalics]

With man make-up? :D

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Mayyybe a moustache.

[softerthansound.livejournal.com]

You are beautiful all the time, but especially when you are happy. I hope this feeling stays with you for a long time. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥ I love you like a puff of dandelion seeds.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*twirls you!* I like you too! I'm so glad we agree.

And I think taking some stress off is a V. Good Thing. Go you. <3333

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<3333!

I think this is really going to--be an excellent change. Even if it does mean I'll have to write a senior thesis, eww. But. Makes me want to skip everywhere.

[erinpuff]

^__________^!!! I love you, so I love when you're happy, so I love this post. :)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<33333 Goes double for you! I always glee when I see that icon.

[tinyammmy]

I love you, miss.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I love you too. You are so brilliant and brave.

[raanve]

A thousand times yes!

You are wonderful. This post make me smile. :)

[the-chloroplast.livejournal.com]

I am so happy for you! Religion is a wonderful major, and so interesting...

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

It is so cool omg. Also, just fyi, Phil and I will be DESCENDING on you in a few minutes.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

YOU make me smile.

[zero_pixel_count]

Well done for having the courage to change. (I did the wrong degree, but was too damn stubborn to ever admit it at the time.)

And as for the future, who can say what will be? I can easily envisage you as a wonderfully caring doctor, or as a wonderfully compassionate priest, or all sorts of other things besides; whatever you become, I am sure you will be doing essentially the same thing with your life: helping people. (This sudden attack of moralising would be more impressive if I could actually remember the biblical reference I wanted to use here! Something about not saying "next year I will go to this place"...)

You are gorgeous, in mind and body. Do not forget this. If the skirt helps you to remember what is true, then the skirt is good. :D

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

(I know what you're talking about! I do know, it's from one of the gospels we just read in my Jesus class. I like that passage.)

♥ You are so splendid.

[zero_pixel_count]

...I'm convinced a big part of priest training must be drilling in enough raw knowledge to stop you from going 'um, that passage, the one...' every time you want to make a point...

♥ you too.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

XD One hopes! God knows that is one of the most annoying parts. Plus with the Synoptics you can never remember which one you read a thing in.

[perculious.livejournal.com]

IIII am so very glad you feel happy, darling!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥ ♥

How are you?

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

What wonderful news! ^__^ I'm so happy for you, miss.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[julietveiled.livejournal.com]

it's been said before, clearly, some thirty times or whatever but--

I'm glad you're glad, in all aspects of your life. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<3! Oh, Kali. Life is a red dress.

[josiana.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're happy, and that you can take the other classes that you wanted now. ^_^ And that you like yourself.

&hearts

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥! I love you.