"Ride On, Through the Night, Ride On..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Back to the whole frantic sleeping-in-my-clothes frazzled-every-minute-of-the-day thing. I think I'm annoying the hell out of everybody, too--definitely feeling like friends are being cooler than usual.

So tired all the time. I feel like I'm always working but never getting anything done; I have a French exam to-morrow that I have literally not studied for, I barely understand my o.chem, I have two papers to write on Friday and a research project due Tuesday the twenty-fourth, plus LAB which I hate not because it's hard but because it eats away huge chunks of my time for no discernible purpose. And I just. So. tired.

On the plus side, I love les femmes.

On the down, I feel like things are slipping out of my hands in a way I can't control. Come back, come back. I can't stand this feeling of helplessless, I hate knowing that I can't shape things into sense. This afternoon I kidnapped a girl out of my titrations lab and ranted at her about a bunch of things that scare me right now. She ran away. I need to get control.

Comments

[mhari.livejournal.com]

I am not being cooler, I am being eaten by hospitals and lack of sleep. ;___; *hugs you up*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<333 it's okay, trust me. I know that you have something bigger going on. It's really people IRL who I think are getting pretty fed up with this whole thing.