"Somewhere, Over the Rainbow..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Well!

I am back from seeing the nutritionist.

First of all, she determined from my food diary (demn me for being so religiously honest about it) that I was eating around nine-hundred calories a day, something I am now expressly forbidden from. It's more than twelve-hundred or else. Also I'm to cut back on my exercise, or else add more variety. I'm forbidden from dieting. I'm forbidden particularly from anything to do with WeightWatchers. She said I was scaring her at points.

I'm to keep a food diary again for the next month; she's looking for a therapist for me, if she can find one she trusts.

I've promised before I went to see her that I'd do what she said, so I must--do as she's said, I suppose. So I'm now required to eat fruits and carbohydrates again. I'm to try and get more variety in my vegetables, although she's pleased with those, if nothing else. I am not allowed to treadmill three hours a day ever (my feet, at least, appreciate that--Mum says I'm to start wearing shoes when I treadmill, too, or I'll have arthritis at twenty-five and no arches).

And she gave me her telephone number, and a list of guidelines, and kept telling me that I looked fine--

so right now, all I'm trying to do is maintain my weight and get my metabolism to go steady again. I'm not allowed to try to lose weight. I'm just to get my sanity back.

(so that someday I can look in mirrors again)

And--I see her again in a month, I suppose.

...I suppose this means I'll go have breakfast now. I might just wait for supper, though.

EDIT: Oh! And she said I'm too pale, and also that I have to start taking my vitamins again. So I am going to go and try to find them. I think they're still in my suitcase from going to Sewanee.

Comments

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*loveloves*

Sanity's good. Yes. (In moderation of course. ;)) Oh, lovey--

*hugs much*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*lovesback*

Isn't it? terribly. (Of course!) Oh. This is--going to be so different. Oh.

Imissyou. I'll be on to-night.

[erinpuff]

Fruits and carbohydrates are my favorite foods! I'm glad you can eat them again. ^^ Get excited about it! Bread is awesome.

You've been treadmilling barefoot? Eep. O_o

And sanity is always a good thing, especially for a Soujin. :)

(also I mailed your tickets today. ^_^)

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

100% agreement on all of these points, except the tickets, which (alas!) I cannot send you!

+HUG+ Now listen to the nice nutritionist lady and love on yourself muchly. =)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I don't see why you'd want me to go to Bethelehem. ^_~

*LOVES* I'll try.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^_^;;; Mine too almost! I'm rather glad to be able to eat them again, too. Eeeebread.

Er, in socks, but yes. My feet are all over callouses and blisters.

Isn't it? ...I love you.

(Bweeeeeeee. OH. ALSO. ERIN. Dangerous Game in Spanish is SEX. ;_________;)

[erinpuff]

Dangerous Game in Spanish is SEX.

Yes, it is. ^^

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Wow. Thank you.

[rhombal.livejournal.com]

Eating right is good!-- *hypocrite, hi, but hopefully not for long*

*hugs* ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

...Oh, you can really talk. *prods lovingly* You had better be eating properly, Miss.

*hugs!*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Mmm, vitamins. I used to take Flintstones vitamins when I was wee. They were yummy. :D

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Mum was just saying I should have that kind! XD Because I stopped taking mine because they taste horrid.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

I like Flintstones! They are kind of like supercharged Smarties. heck, I'd take them now if I thought I could get away with it. ;)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*giggles!*

Eee. But I told her that I'd end up marking them down obsessively in my things-I-shouldn't-have-eaten book because they probably contain sugar.

[bewareofitalics]

Yay food! Eat and be happy and healthy! *twirls* *...and then goes to the dining hall and attempts to follow own advice :P*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

We're working on that, certainly...! *loves* *and chases there!*

[mmebahorel.livejournal.com]

Good. You need to listen to the nutritionist and do what she says. She knows what is good for you. (and at this point, I think you have an eating disorder and need therapy, so I hope she finds you a shrink soon and you listen to the shrink, too)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I promised I would; so I shall do my best. (...I said that months ago, but everyone thought I was dramatising; now I think I'm dramatising and everyone says I have an eating disorder. Hah.)

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

Food is a grand, grand thing, Miss Soujin. And gluttony isn't even really a Sin -- it was on the list of Virtues, but they had an executive mix-up and it ended up on the wrong pile. Such a tragic tale. ;____;

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Food is an awful, awful torturous thing, Mlle. I don't know why on earth I must endure it. Besides, I'm a sinner; if it was on the list of Virtues even once, I can't touch it.

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

Well, think of it from a distance away -- what's important is the taste, not the swallowing and getting down...

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

That's not logic, you know.

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

On the contrary, it's the best logic there is. What's important is the flavour, that explosion of colour in your mouth. After that's just reflexes kicking in.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

;_____; Do you have any idea how many issues I have with food? Stop that at once, young lady..!

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

No, I don't, which is why I'm being ridiculous -- but that's banter for you, banter, fan-thwapping and guessing in the dark.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I can certainly do the fan-thwapping bit properly for you! My poor soul.

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

Seriously, though, you know I don't mean anything. I'm only taking friendly jabs. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know. <3 That's why I keep using the love icon, Mlle.

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

I figured, Mlle. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Oh--

I love you.

[fish-bananas.livejournal.com]

And I love you. :)

[dame_grise]

Be healthy.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I'll try.

[dame_grise]

*hugs* Losing weight is a good thing in general, except you have to stay strong and well. *loffs*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I'm not losing weight. That's the whole problem. I'm starving myself and gaining everything back and a horrific rate. That's why I am insane and need a psychologist and a nutritionist and majorly to be fixed.

[dame_grise]

*hugs* You've hurt your metabolism, but I remember you were losing weight earlier in the year.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes, that stopped back in May. It's been months since I lost any weight.

[dame_grise]

*hugs* Be careful, dearie, and get well. We love you.

[meteorspark.livejournal.com]

*slightly! late! comment!*

...She's right, you know. She is. You can't do this to yourself -- you can't lose weight if you're not eating healthily, and it's not healthy to not eat enough, and.

*clings* Be well, please?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know. I know. It's just--very frustrating. I know. I just didn't realise I wasn't eating enough, which makes it difficult--I've always felt I was eating too much, and--

I'll be well. I'll take care. <3 I'm sorry, thank you.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

-- I know I already commented about this over AIM, but-- I'm glad. I'm not glad you're not as well as should be, obviously, but I'm glad that there's something to do about it, and someone to help. She sounds quite nice, actually, and that's always good. Fruits and carbohydrates are terribly healthy, you know. -- But you do know. So. So I shall stop being annoying now.

*pounces* And I have been entrusted by your nutritionist to make you eat like a normal person. -- How scary is that?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I'm glad, too. She's very nice, and very funny, and I trust her a lot more than--anybody else who's ever lectured me over my health. ^_^;;; They are nooooot as healthy as protein and vegetables, theoretically...! But you're never annoying.

XD That is wonderful.

[la-lanterne.livejournal.com]

I hope the therapist helps you. Or anyone, really. I had - anyway, I think I had an eating disorder. But I'm too bloody good at keeping secrets, so it was ages before anyone noticed. I don't know what to say, sorry. I'm afraid I'll upset you.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

The nutritionist is helping loads more than the therapist did. But-- oh. *hugstight* I'm sorry. You won't upset me. But I'm sorry--