"Somewhere, Over the Rainbow..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Well!

I am back from seeing the nutritionist.

First of all, she determined from my food diary (demn me for being so religiously honest about it) that I was eating around nine-hundred calories a day, something I am now expressly forbidden from. It's more than twelve-hundred or else. Also I'm to cut back on my exercise, or else add more variety. I'm forbidden from dieting. I'm forbidden particularly from anything to do with WeightWatchers. She said I was scaring her at points.

I'm to keep a food diary again for the next month; she's looking for a therapist for me, if she can find one she trusts.

I've promised before I went to see her that I'd do what she said, so I must--do as she's said, I suppose. So I'm now required to eat fruits and carbohydrates again. I'm to try and get more variety in my vegetables, although she's pleased with those, if nothing else. I am not allowed to treadmill three hours a day ever (my feet, at least, appreciate that--Mum says I'm to start wearing shoes when I treadmill, too, or I'll have arthritis at twenty-five and no arches).

And she gave me her telephone number, and a list of guidelines, and kept telling me that I looked fine--

so right now, all I'm trying to do is maintain my weight and get my metabolism to go steady again. I'm not allowed to try to lose weight. I'm just to get my sanity back.

(so that someday I can look in mirrors again)

And--I see her again in a month, I suppose.

...I suppose this means I'll go have breakfast now. I might just wait for supper, though.

EDIT: Oh! And she said I'm too pale, and also that I have to start taking my vitamins again. So I am going to go and try to find them. I think they're still in my suitcase from going to Sewanee.

Comments

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Wow. Thank you.