"I Thought We'd Be Simple Together..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

You know what's kind of sad? Every since the doctor doubled my meds, I've stopped crying randomly all over the place. I can focus and get my work done in a timely fashion (unless I purposely procrastinate, but. :P). I can cope on less sleep--I had six hours Sunday night and last night about the same, and I feel fine, it was easy to get up in the morning. I feel peaceful and able to think ahead and pretty much in control of what's going on.

So basically I feel like a normal person, I feel like me again, I feel really good.

The sad part is that Mama doesn't get paid until Friday, so she can't give me money until then, and my scrip runs out to-morrow. I'm cutting back down to one pill a day so I can stretch them out until Thursday, but I'm pretty much fucked. And it's sad because this is such a nice feeling. And I'm going to miss it, is all.

I mean, I'll probably go right back to it once I get my refill, and it's only going to be a few days, but usually going off meds when I've been on them makes me really really sick, physically as well as mentally. So that's depressing.

Probably means I should take advantage of this while it's still here. I wonder how much I can get done to-day. :D

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[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Well, I mean, I can tell myself that all I want, but it's not going to change the fact that the bottom will feel like it's fallen out of the world.