"Honesty Left Me..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Feeling much worse. Treadmilled, to see if some exercise would help, which it doesn't seem to have; called off work. Guilty.

Have developed a cough, now, which agitates my throat.

The only good thing is this means it can't be something I did to myself. I would feel too guilty to manage if I'd made myself ill. I used to. In school. I don't remember, I only remember that I went to the nurse's office all the time, and finally she let me help her with silly little things all during the lunch hour, but I always thought she was just doing that. Mum says she did it because I was getting teased, and she was hiding me. She says I made myself sick all the time, about the time I'd have to eat lunch, sometimes earlier, and everybody knew it was psychological and whatnot, and. I did it to get out of things, you see.

So I thought that maybe because of the play, and being so stressed, I was making myself ill to get out of things. But I don't think I could make myself have a sore throat, even though I could do dizziness. So it must be real. I think it is. I hope it is.

Now to lie down.

Comments

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*clings* It's real. No guilt. None. At all. Lie down. Soup. Ice cream. Tylenol.

What happened to my complete sentences?

[kateorman.livejournal.com]

Gods, I used to fantasise about having my legs broken when I was failing my honours year. A clear sign that it was time to quit!

Being teased at school would make anyone sick - upset stomach, headaches, the natural symptoms of stress. You wouldn't have to deliberately "make" yourself ill - in fact, you probably wouldn't be able to help it.

*kills and eats all school bullies*

Ahem. Anyway, don't exercise when you're ill; you need rest, not exertion, thilly. :-x

[bewareofitalics]

*hugs some more*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Meeeeep. *squiggles Soujin* Go to bed, read thy books, drink juice and eat soup. Sick is no fun. :(

[allyness.livejournal.com]

Aww, honey. Don't get yourself all worked up about this o_o; You're sick, so you should pamper yourself. No feeling guilty! You can't help it! Your sense of obligation is running away with you. Remember: there's nothing wrong with taking a little bit of time for *yourself*, even if you aren't ill, but especially if you are :) -hug-

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

They got ill?

Had some soup. Found a couple of cans of my nice reduced-calorie reduced-sodium Healthy Choice kind in the back of the cabinet.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Really? *eeps*

Well, no. I don't think I was doing it deliberately, or I would have remembered. But it was definitely me, and not actual illness. That's why I was afraid I was doing it now and couldn't tell.

*tries very hard not to encourage you*

Oops. *apologises*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*is very thankful*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*is squiggled, and appreciates it much* Yes, ma'am. I went to bed, I read, I drank water, and I had zoop. And now I is better. You must be a genius. ^_^

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you very much. I just--never have time. O_O I still don't have time, but I suppose there wasn't anything I could do about it.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

I think they were just on stike 'cause of how long I'd been awake.

Good girl. *pets* See? Doing as I tell you is a good thing.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Well, that too.

^__^ So it is! Clever Zara2. *loveson*

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*beams and loves back*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*is very happy with all the love*

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*sent you a postcard with more love*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*yays! and sends back a package of it*

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

*g* Although I have nothing to top a package of love, I really did send you a postcard.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*squees* Really? Oh, and Horatio's letter is in the mail for Hamlet! With a surprise in it!

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

Reeeeally! A surprise? Ohnoes! The suspense!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Squeeee! Bwahahaha.