"Honesty Left Me..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Feeling much worse. Treadmilled, to see if some exercise would help, which it doesn't seem to have; called off work. Guilty.

Have developed a cough, now, which agitates my throat.

The only good thing is this means it can't be something I did to myself. I would feel too guilty to manage if I'd made myself ill. I used to. In school. I don't remember, I only remember that I went to the nurse's office all the time, and finally she let me help her with silly little things all during the lunch hour, but I always thought she was just doing that. Mum says she did it because I was getting teased, and she was hiding me. She says I made myself sick all the time, about the time I'd have to eat lunch, sometimes earlier, and everybody knew it was psychological and whatnot, and. I did it to get out of things, you see.

So I thought that maybe because of the play, and being so stressed, I was making myself ill to get out of things. But I don't think I could make myself have a sore throat, even though I could do dizziness. So it must be real. I think it is. I hope it is.

Now to lie down.

Comments

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Meeeeep. *squiggles Soujin* Go to bed, read thy books, drink juice and eat soup. Sick is no fun. :(

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*is squiggled, and appreciates it much* Yes, ma'am. I went to bed, I read, I drank water, and I had zoop. And now I is better. You must be a genius. ^_^