"Turned His World Upside Down, Turned a King into a Clown..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

So I have been trying to figure out why I am so incredibly amazingly calm about the fact that I have less than a week to write a twenty-page research paper and it's not even started yet, and realised to-day, with skyerana's help, that I've basically been totally mellowed out since I started on the Celexa. Which I guess is both good and bad, since, you know, on the one hand, totally calm. On the other hand, paper not started.

And I have no intention of starting it to-night, either. SIGH.

I can't believe I finally found a drug that kills my anxiety, just in time for goddamn finals. I'm trying to decide whether I should stop taking it, just for finals week, or play along and try to motivate myself. The psych is gone for the year, so I can't talk to her, little as I wish to do that anyway.

This is immensely stupid.

Comments

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

Celexa was the first antidepressant that worked for me. <3

However: if you Google Celexa lack of motivation, you'll find a lot of stuff. But tbh, your anxiety and depression cause you so much suffering, it can't possibly be worth the trade-off - not to mention the withdrawal. Are there other motives for writing the paper than grinding terror? (I scraped through a maths exam once thanks to a bag of chewing gum. It's true.)

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Perhaps if I SIT ON YOU until you write it? :D

[watchcry.livejournal.com]

Please do not stop taking it for finals. That would be a bad bad idea, and you would go nuts. Simply ask for extensions when you need them, like you will on this thing.

[eremon-lass.livejournal.com]

Oh good, you and I can have an internet paper-party...I have to present the first 4ish pages of a 10ish page paper on Tuesday and while I do have an awesome title (because I had to turn that in), I have no thesis. Woo-hoo!

[josiana.livejournal.com]

Wow, that's pretty awkward timing. :o I don't know, could you try taking a smaller dose until after finals? Because withdrawal could be pretty bad, if you just stop.

But good luck with your paper, in any case. ;_; &hearts