"If You Lean Your Head Out Far Enough..."

Firstly I would like so so so awfully to thank Manon, and Erin, and Snowy and Kali and Nanni and Mika, because--Oh, I don't know what to say, I really don't, but--oh. Thank you so much. Thank you so much.

Work was rather insane to-day, and I didn't get to spend much time with my people, since I was working alone; but we have a new gentleman named Elias who is rather curious and I like him. But I think Anna is getting much iller, and I'm afraid she may die soon. I keep telling her how much I love her every time I see her, so she'll know (she knows) but I'm sad-worried. I know my people die, but it doesn't change anything.

Jennie's doing okay again, though, and I'm glad. And Anne is back! Anne left last year or maybe even two years ago, but she's back now. I do like her an awful lot, but she's in much worse shape than she was before. She's lots smaller, and doesn't wear glasses any longer, and I think this is because she can't see enough to make it worth while. But she smiles a lot more than she used to.

So, so, to-morrow, psychiatrist. Thank heaven.

I accidentally broke my glasses to-day, but Mum believe she can fix them, so that is okay. I asked her if I could tell her things if she promised not to be angry (because I haven't told her a good deal simply because I don't want her to be), and she said yes, so I did. Told her about Christmas night, Monday night, and Tuesday, and she did not get angry, although she was very upset. And she told me to bring the note along to show the psychiatrist.

So I think it's definitely an eating disorder at this point. I don't suppose one can deny that, though I was wishing I could.

But, at any rate, to-morrow the psychiatrist, and the craft-supplies store, to spend my fifteen dollars for Christmas (I shall probably buy all stickers and stationery, knowing me); and Friday, Miss Zara! I can't believe it's so close, and I'm so excited. And I am to-morrow getting ready my shopping list for things I'll need for my baking. Friday also I have the appointment with the doctor about the abscess, and also work at the library--no time, in other words, for anything. I will have to do Friday's schoolwork Thursday night, I think.

I am doing a little better with school, by the way. I did not fail Astronomy, with great effort and several hours shut in my room with the exam and The Lion King playing very loud; and if I work harder at Maths, I may get through Algebra Two this year. Grammar is still easy and Logic is still impossibly exasperating and Latin is exciiiiiting, because we're doing perfect tense, which is where the words stop looking like themselves (i.e. ago, agere becomes egi, actum. bzuh). Still reading the Iliad, and I am behind in my Geography exercises, and I think that's everything. But, at any rate, yaynotfailingAstronomy!

...Now I am going to sleep, because it has taken me an hour to write this post, and I must be up considerably early to-morrow morning.

(Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you--)