psalm_onethirtyone | "El Camino, Where Are You Going? Do You Have Some Room For Me?" (Reply)

I shall be spoilt and dreadful loads to-night, I think.

I should like to be hugged and kissed upon the cheeks by everyone who will. I love you, I love you, I love you--will you love me?

I am cheating on my diet again. I am eating carbohydrates--specifically, Kashi cereal. Also I am eating fruits--specifically, our Asian pears and one of our beautiful Red Delicious. Damn me. I am so tired of dieting. Did you realise it's been more than a year now? It makes me want to be sick, and it makes me feel trapped and tired and scared. I don't want to do this for the rest of my life, do not. I am ill of it. I don't think I'll ever feel beautiful no matter what I do.

Ack! My leg cuts are bleeding again. O_O They are dripping. Must scamper off to the kitchen for towels!

...If any one still wants to give me a hug after that. *chokes* Please? I should love it desperately--I'm not melancholy, I'm just prettyworried. I should like to be hugged.

*shrieks* Augh, it's running down my ankles. Excuse me, I most assuredly need a towel. Augh. *fwomps off*