"Ride On, Through the Night, Ride On..."
Nov. 10th, 2009 10:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
psalm_onethirtyoneBack to the whole frantic sleeping-in-my-clothes frazzled-every-minute-of-the-day thing. I think I'm annoying the hell out of everybody, too--definitely feeling like friends are being cooler than usual.
So tired all the time. I feel like I'm always working but never getting anything done; I have a French exam to-morrow that I have literally not studied for, I barely understand my o.chem, I have two papers to write on Friday and a research project due Tuesday the twenty-fourth, plus LAB which I hate not because it's hard but because it eats away huge chunks of my time for no discernible purpose. And I just. So. tired.
On the plus side, I love les femmes.
On the down, I feel like things are slipping out of my hands in a way I can't control. Come back, come back. I can't stand this feeling of helplessless, I hate knowing that I can't shape things into sense. This afternoon I kidnapped a girl out of my titrations lab and ranted at her about a bunch of things that scare me right now. She ran away. I need to get control.
So tired all the time. I feel like I'm always working but never getting anything done; I have a French exam to-morrow that I have literally not studied for, I barely understand my o.chem, I have two papers to write on Friday and a research project due Tuesday the twenty-fourth, plus LAB which I hate not because it's hard but because it eats away huge chunks of my time for no discernible purpose. And I just. So. tired.
On the plus side, I love les femmes.
On the down, I feel like things are slipping out of my hands in a way I can't control. Come back, come back. I can't stand this feeling of helplessless, I hate knowing that I can't shape things into sense. This afternoon I kidnapped a girl out of my titrations lab and ranted at her about a bunch of things that scare me right now. She ran away. I need to get control.
