May. 25th, 2005

psalm_onethirtyone: (Dying [made by erinpuff])
Every time I cough it makes me double up because of the pain in my abdomen. Mum, before she went to work, explained that this is because I've been coughing so much that I've strained all the muscles down there. This is very comforting, because it means I don't have some scary inexplicable internal condition.

Called off work again. I won't get to see my people for another three whole weeks, now. >_< I asked Linda please to promise me that she'd tell them all I was going to miss them and that I loved them.

I haven't eaten a thing since some beans yesterday at around two, but I'm not the slightest bit hungry; in fact, the idea of food makes me feel a little ill. Is that a natural thing to happen? I'm just curious, really.

I have Weigh-in to-night at five-twenty, if I can make it, and an appointment at eights from a couple of weeks back to have my hair re-coloured and then chopped off so that it's short. The latter I pray I can make. The former would be nice, too, because guhhh. I've missed two Curves sessions this week and have done my diet very erratically, depending on how conscious or dead I was on respective days.

This isn't much at all fair. I can't do anything, really, because I'm too fuzzy in my head to concentrate much, but aware enough to realise how completely bored out of my skull I am because lying in bed in a grey room for sixteen hours is one of the dullest things anyone can do. I can't read because it hurts my head; I can't sleep because I'm not sleepy any longer, despite being tired; I can't write because that requires too much coherent thought. Light bothers me. I can't say I'm all that averse to going ahead and simply kicking the proverbial bucket to put myself out of my misery.

Wangst wangst wangst. I need to do something besides sitting here and feeling sorry for myself.

Outside it's raining.
psalm_onethirtyone: (Zebra [made by ninefish])
It's May Twenty-Fifth. Do YOU know where your towel is?

*snuggles deep inside big fluffy green one*

Also, this makes me laugh.

Waen's Dorian Gray music is so beautiful. <3 I think she's playing 'Bliss' right now.

I hurt. So bloody much. Not fair.
psalm_onethirtyone: (Soujin's People [made by male_chan])
Well, this is it, my friends.

In order to alleviate my grief slightly, I have made a Random Gratuitous Drive-By Polling Instance for you. I hope you will all be consoled.

[Poll #500873]

*hugs everyone* I love you all very much, and I'm going to miss you like whoa-crazy. Don't anybody die until I get back, okay? Otherwise I won't get to have a dramatic parting scene with you, complete with swelling musical chords and tearful last words, and that would be so many kinds of awful. So. Stay alive, everybody!

Bisous,
Soujin ^____^

P.S. My hair is short now. I love it.

Profile

psalm_onethirtyone: (Default)
Soujin

January 2012

S M T W T F S
12345 67
89101112 1314
15161718192021
22232425262728
293031    

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags