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Happy Valentine's Day, everybody.
I love you so much.
I love you so much.
Feb. 14th, 2007
Woke up this morning to discover that my kitty was extremely sick during the night all over my bedsheets and floor. That was fun. So right now my room is bare of sheets and smells of odor remover, and I think it is rather curious that odor remover has such a distinct smell but that is not the point. So my day started off with some definite hysterical crying, but I survived.
And then Waen and Maggie and I tobogganed on the snow for a while, and threw snow chunks (it wasn't the proper kind of snow for snowballs), and walked on the frozen pond; and then we came inside and I made molten chocolate cake for Valentine's. And I have been rather sick all day, too, but I'm okay, just nauseous. I got a package of lovelies from Nanni and a wonderful card from Zara, and also a card from Mum. ^_^
Someone was saying to-day on metaquotes that sometimes you just have to stop really sitting down and thinking when you have depression, or you're not able to get up again ever, and I feel that way. There's this very fragile balance between me keeping myself and me losing myself, and I'm always scared that I'm going to tip it--and all sorts of things tip it that aren't me, like people saying perfectly innocuous things that my head can't process, or my face not looking right in the morning. Trying to fall asleep and not being able to always tips it everywhere, which is why Zara got called in the middle of the night last night by a Soujin who was sobbing (and I can't thank her enough for not being annoyed with me, because it was seriously around two-thirty).
Well; this doesn't actually mean anything (why do I keep bringing up my sadness? Because there is no way it doesn't get boring and annoying). I just haven't balanced well this week, and I wish I were.
But it's a very pretty love-day.
And then Waen and Maggie and I tobogganed on the snow for a while, and threw snow chunks (it wasn't the proper kind of snow for snowballs), and walked on the frozen pond; and then we came inside and I made molten chocolate cake for Valentine's. And I have been rather sick all day, too, but I'm okay, just nauseous. I got a package of lovelies from Nanni and a wonderful card from Zara, and also a card from Mum. ^_^
Someone was saying to-day on metaquotes that sometimes you just have to stop really sitting down and thinking when you have depression, or you're not able to get up again ever, and I feel that way. There's this very fragile balance between me keeping myself and me losing myself, and I'm always scared that I'm going to tip it--and all sorts of things tip it that aren't me, like people saying perfectly innocuous things that my head can't process, or my face not looking right in the morning. Trying to fall asleep and not being able to always tips it everywhere, which is why Zara got called in the middle of the night last night by a Soujin who was sobbing (and I can't thank her enough for not being annoyed with me, because it was seriously around two-thirty).
Well; this doesn't actually mean anything (why do I keep bringing up my sadness? Because there is no way it doesn't get boring and annoying). I just haven't balanced well this week, and I wish I were.
But it's a very pretty love-day.
"She Closed Herself Up Like a Fan..."
Feb. 14th, 2007 10:54 pmTom? Did you send the rose? ♥
Whoever it was, thank you so very awfully much. It was wonderful of you.
Whoever it was, thank you so very awfully much. It was wonderful of you.
