"Frank Has Made and Lost His Creature..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

To-day was depressingly awful.

There was nobody else with Activities at Stoneybridge, so I ran the 00:30 activity, the 15:00 activity, and the 16:15 activity, all of which hate me so very very much that I cannot even begin to describe the passion with which they hate me. Hate, hate, hate. Admittedly, the 16:15, for the first time in its little trivia life, went well--but augh. Augh. I cannot function without Rebecca. I need Rebecca!

And I gained 1.4 pounds, which I have never done before. Dear God, I was good this week. I walked a grand total of seven hours and fifteen minutes, never went over my points target, and only had one of Mum's birthday truffles. ONE. And then I cried at the meeting, because I hate gaining.

Then, after all that, I finally dragged my (five or six lb) bag up the disturbing number of steps from our garage to our front door, and on the very last one, tripped over myself and skinned my elbow.

Typically, am drowning my sorrows in food. Now, admittedly, said food is peas, spaghetti, apples, and corn tortilla chips. But it's still food, and I still shouldn't be eating it, and dear God I am going to hell. In a handbasket. With ribbons.

AND COLOURED EASTER GRASS.

I cannot deal with myself. I am going to go to bed early and read Phantom of the Opera, because I do not have the energy to work on my NaNo. Damn. And I'll be really, really, extraordinarily good this week, and pray that somehow I can lose 1.6 pounds before Thanksgiving.

Why does life hate me so much? I was .2 away from my 10% goal, I truly was. I was so excited about it, and I thought with all the hiking and how well I was doing that I was going to lose that at least for sure. Wah. ;_;

Comments

[snowyofthenight.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It's okaaay! And besides, I wrote my very firstest slash I've ever written just for you, so that had to have made the day a little better.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes. Yes, that improved the day unspeakable. *clingsto*

[shawk.livejournal.com]

At least you'll have Easter Grass. ;)

Really, though, hang in there. There are ups and downs but it's gotta work out in the end, right?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

True!

I'm sure it will. It's just arranging things so that when they finally do work out, I'll appreciate it, demmit!

[missingclone.livejournal.com]

and don't forget... muscle has more mass than fat!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

That's a nice thought. ^_^ Really?

[missingclone.livejournal.com]

yes it does!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Rawk. ^________^

[missingclone.livejournal.com]

so think of it that way... since you're doing so much exercise, that's probably what it is.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

You make me very happy, 'Moko-chan. ^___^ *glomp*

[missingclone.livejournal.com]

Not a problem. I speak zee truse.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

All hail zee truse-shpeaking 'Moko-chan!