"On a white chalk horse we'll ride..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Life does not exist to-day, please. I don't want it.

It's so dark here, but not badly... dark like my icon dark.

I'm making cake again and listening to music and not doing any exercise, for which I shall pay (I love how my solution to my horrible self-image is not exercising or not dieting for a day. logic? what logic?); but I am so tired, and I wanted to sleep, and I did, alas.

So I am wearing my twenty-five cent Sewanee dress, which is black but with rainbow trim on the sleeves and collar and waist. So pretty. And to-night Waen and I will be home alone and watch films and be silly, and Miss Zara will telephone, for which I am impossibly excited and glad. And I have so much to read, and I shall read.

I have poetry to write to-day...! I shall write poetry to-day.

My burns cannot believe I scratched them open yesterday. They are complaining painful loud.

...Sillysilly Soujin.

Haven't brushed my hair all week. My suitcase is still unpacked from when we went to Blue Mountain Lake. I don't understand this lack of desire.

This is not a reassuring post, is it? Augh, I'm sorry. I'm fine, really. My discontent is always the same thing, and it's so pervasive and always there that I don't really think about it that much most of the time. Eventually, I assume, I'll just get used to it--is this what it will be when I'm fixed?

At any rate, I'm quite all right.

Shall go finish my cake now. Also need Waen to help me make bread. Not sure she'll agree.

Comments

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*snugglesnuggle*

Yay for cake and poetry and movies.

*puts leaves in your hair*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*snugglesagainst!*

^__________^

*twirls to make them flutter*

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

+hugs you close+ I understand, love. You're lovely to me, beyond words.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Thank you-- thank you so much. I love you.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

Films are lovely-- watching films and being silly even more so. And poetry! And reading! And I shall telephone. Perhaps not until later in the evening-- eight, perhaps?

Oh, oh, cake and bread-- homemade bread? Wow.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes--yes! ^__________^ It is (was) all quite wonderful-- especially your telephoning, although I remembered just as we said good-by that I had forgotten to ask you to read German!Hamlet to me--

Yes! Waen is terribly good at making bread. She shapes it like-- well, I'll show you-- this (http://geocities.com/moraeflorae/thefish).

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

Oh! Oh, yes. I realised that as I came back to the computer, as well, but forgot to mention it. I will telephone again soon, then? -- Though I am really horrid. I will have to find a bit that is not so complicated.

Eeeeehomemade bread! I haven't had that for... ages. My sister used to make various different kinds every year for Thanksgiving, but she doesn't anymore.-- And! Ooooh! That's so cute!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes! ^________^ You must. I shall be very put out if you don't, at any rate. --I do not believe you. Eeee.

Oh! Perhaps that's what I should bring you. ^_______^ It transports very well. --Oooh, yay for breadmaking sisters! --^_______^ There's a shrimp, too.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

Well, then, it's settled. I shall. -- And you'll see. It's terrible.

Oooh. Yes, that might perhaps be easier than a cake. :D Though you needn't bring me anything, of course...! ^__^ So. Cute.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^_________^ I can't wait. --I shall see no such thing. Purr.

Although, of course, I should not have made it myself if 'twere bread; as Waen does that. H'm. Those questions, those questions! Cake, or not cake? I need a soliloquy. la! (http://geocities.com/moraeflorae/shrimpbread)

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

I shall rehearse! (And still fail. XD)

To cake or not to cake, that is it the question. Whether 'tis nobler in the kitchen to knead and rise by hand of Waen, or to have Soujin bake a cake instead-- I'm too tired to make that scan, sorry. -- Omg, I love it.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

And all for me! Eeeeee! (Shall NOT.)

--And I love you. Oh.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

But of course! (Haha! On my midterm, I got marked down for pronunciation, so THERE!)

-- I love you more.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

>:D TO-MORROW! (That was then, this is now. You'll have been practising for me, of course. <333)

--Can't possibly.