"Went to School and I was Very Nervous..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Guess what Soujin is going to do?

Soujin is going to take her crazy little socially anxious, eating disordered self, and she is going to step the hell out of her comfort zone, just as Gail is always telling her to, and she is going to go to schools.

And talk about eating disorders. And why they don't work, and what they do to your poor head, and why if you want to lose weight, exercise is always the way to go, almost always. And the ways you can get sick, the ways it gets out of control, and the ways it hurts you. And she's going to bring telephone numbers, book resources, and names of doctors and psychiatrists. She's going to make ridiculous jokes--she's going to let the people at the schools know how the ED clinic is in the immediate vicinity of Hershey's Chocolate World.

Most of all, she is going to try to talk about this now, while she's young enough maybe to connect to the people she talks to, while the disorder is not yet conquered, while she can maybe make a difference. She is going to try to help other people not have happen to them what happened to her.

(--maybe it's all part of the healing process--)

(--I telephoned to-day, and I left a message--I'm waiting for an answer back with the woman who can connect me with the school board--)

(--I can't believe I'm doing this--)

Comments

[jiasachan.livejournal.com]

Oh--! That sounds like a wonderful idea.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I really hope so. ^__^;; I'm hoping I don't faint with nervousness when I'm actually trying to talk in front of people.

But I'd really like to do something that might make a difference and help, maybe, if I can. Because eating disorders are awful, and so stupid.

[erinpuff]

*clings* You're very brave to do this. And also very awesome and wonderful.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*loves* No, really, as I told Anna, when I'm actually in front of people this is going to seem like a very bad idea. But I'm going to try.

[theatre-angel.livejournal.com]

I think that is a wonderful, wonderful idea. So often, the people who speak at schools are too old for the students to be able to identify with, and I'm sure you'd have a terrific impact if you spoke about it.

And oh, your subject line. "Mad World" is one of my absolute favorite songs in the entire world.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

That's what I was hoping. That the fact that I'd be the same age as a lot of the people there would--make it easier to connect, in a way.

^___^ Me, too! I have two versions, and I think Zara gave them both to me.

[and-i.livejournal.com]

You're brave, and its a wonderful thing to do. *hugs supportively*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you so much.

[little-lady-d.livejournal.com]

soso proud. ^_^ come here so i can spin you --

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Here I am! *holds arms out*

[madame-enjolras.livejournal.com]

...oh, that's wonderful. :D Best of luck. ♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. ♥

[meteorspark.livejournal.com]

...I'm so proud of you, it's silly, but I am -- you'll be wonderful, you will.

(-- I think it will be, I think it will help you get better, a little.)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*clingstohugsonto* Thank you so much--I'll try to do it well, I'll look like an idiot -- :D -- ^_^;;;

(--a little, I think--)

[josiana.livejournal.com]

You’re a very brave person. I hope it helps you.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. *loves*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

--Soujin is amazing. *BIG HUG*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Soujin is just trying to help-- *LOVES*

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

*glomp* go you, being brave!

I just rememberd, that there's a Curves Fitness Center somewhere 'round here, right across a parking lot from a Krispy Kreme. S'not as bad as the ED clinic in Hershey, but...

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^_^;;;; Thank youuu. I'm not brave, though, I just want to do something.

Owwww. Yes, that's bad--yes. Ours is right across from a pizza shop.

[morlomiel.livejournal.com]

<3! Go, Soujin!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^^;;;;; Thank you....!

Yay!

[my_daroga]

I think that's the best idea ever! You know how you learn stuff better if you have to teach it? I think this is awesome! I really hope this goes well for you.

Re: Yay!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^_^; Thank you so much. I really hope I can help somewhat.

[bewareofitalics]

Ooooh, good luck! *hugs* That sounds like a great idea.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugstight* Thank you so much. I really rilly hope I don't get stage fright. :P

[dizmo]

YAY SOUJIN! RAH RAH RAH! YOU ARE PWN!

*DOES A DANCE*

*SPRINKLES CONFETTI AT YOU*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*HIDES*

EEEE, CONFETTI! DILIERIN IS SO GOOD TO ME! ^_____^ *DANCES INNIT*

[eremon-lass.livejournal.com]

Love and best wishes and have virtual cookies! *offers virtual cookies with Epimetheus-worthy rainbow sprinkles on top*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*squees and falls over* Ohhh, Epimetheus wants to know whether he can have some, too...!

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

I think it's a wonderful idea, even if it's scary (and I know it is-- and it's scarier than I know, I'm sure)-- and if it helps you, it'll be wonderful, if it helps someone at one of those schools, it'll be wonderful-- and if it doesn't help you, or if it's too soon, or anything, you can stop and you can try again later. And there's always time.

*clings and hairpets* I love you. I think you're amazing, you know.

And I'm sorry I didn't get to telephone tonight. It's 1:30 and I've just gotten in. We stopped at Eat'N'Park, and I had chai... even though I'm not supposed to have caffeine that late. I can give you a ring tomorrow, or we can just wait until Saturday when I can steal you away from the world and keep you as my own--!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

It's terrifying--I'm a complete idiot, but I'm going to die, but I can't wait, but it's terrifying-- I want, I want it to help, and I can always try again, and the world's waiting, the world's not going to vanish to-morrow -- right? :) But I'm--

I love you so much. I love you so much. *hugs onto and never lets go*

That's fine, it's fine--good Lord, woman, one-thirty...! Ohhh, you oughn't, but eeeee, chai...! ^__^ IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou--maybe you could telephone to-night around eight or maybe earlier or maybe or what will work best--oh.

TO-MORROW I'M YOURS...!

[eponinenkind.livejournal.com]

WOW. *hugs* I'm incredibly impressed. I think that's brilliant. Congrats, love!
♥

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*eeps* Thank you so much! I really hope I can do this. ^_^;;;

[lokogato.livejournal.com]

This may not seem like much, but I am so proud of you. You are amazing. You're like, I don't know how to say it, all this love being spread all over and amazing and wonderful and loveloveloveLove. So proud. *clings tightly*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*wibbles* Ohhh, thank you so much--I'm really not, I just want to help a little, and--

OMGPENGUINS. ^______________________^

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

+HUG+ This is very, VERY brave of you, dearest, and I'm so, so proud of you for this, however it works out. I hopehopehope it works well.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*hugsback veryvery tight* Ohh, thank you so much.