"I Don't Mind Spending Every Day..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

*cries* No, life. I am too tired. Please, please, please go away.

... *cries more; just to make sure life gets the picture, apparently*

Oh, well. A few scattered things. Firstly, let it never be said that I have no sense of humour. Jack of Diamonds and My Girl on the Santa Fe Trail. Jack of Diamonds is the best song ever. I used to sing it all the time.

I got sick at bowling to-day; a combination, I think, of being utterly dehydrated and not having taken any medications for three days (auuugh). On the other hand, everyone on my team won a trophy. I didn't, but--oh, it was wonderful. I felt like I was full of light and light-headed happy. It's so good when people do well and are pleased by it, and I'm glad to see it. <3 Chelsey got first place. So proud. ^__^

Seeing Gail was okay. She basically said 'start taking your meds again and drink more water!', both of which I want to do anyway. To-morrow I am being kidnapped from my nice safe library and taken out shopping for trousers instead. I painted in my only pair, so now they have big white spots and are no longer wearable for the most part. So. I hate shopping for clothes with a violent passion, as it tends to be self-esteem killing.

I am working at not being totally pathetic, but having only moderate success. >_> I still suck at the being a good friend, a decent writer, a motivated worker, or even a normal conversant. I don't know how to convey this without sounding ridiculous. Also, I feel sick and want to cry some more.

Go away, life. ;________;

Comments

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

*holds close*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*loves*

[erinpuff]

Nuh-uh, teh Soujin does not suck! *clings*

My sympathies on the pants-shopping. I've got to do that too next week; I need clothes to wear for my recital and I refuse to wear a dress, and also I outgrew one of my pairs of jeans. :p

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Does too. ;___________;

It is so. awful. I ended up going with two pairs that basically fit just so I could get out. >_> They're both rather too big, but I settled.

[illgotten.livejournal.com]

I still suck at the being a good friend,

Nope.

a decent writer,

Hell nope.

a motivated worker,

Maybe.

or even a normal conversant.

It's overrated. :P

<3

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Sir! *clings*

[illgotten.livejournal.com]

At your service, lady. *ruffles*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*lovesto*

[eremon-lass.livejournal.com]

If I'm not allowed to fail at life, neither are you, so there. You are not pathetic, you are a perfectly fine friend and writer, and as long as you've got us to converse with there's no need for it to be normal.

I'm on tonight, so feel free to poke me.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*wibbles*

I'm so sorry! I had a massive breakdown last night and ended up pretty much screaming myself to sleep. ;___________; I did not mean to miss you or leave you hanging. Are you on to-night or again this week?

[1handedwelshman.livejournal.com]

Typist: *snuggles* It's okay dearling. Goodness, with all the times I've totally blown you off I'm not about to hold it against you. I am indeed on tonight, though I'll disappear briefly at some point to shower.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*holdsto* Okay. Then I'll come on. ♥

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Darling? You're a great friend and a magnificent writer. No one wants to talk to a normal conversant, and you do just fine as an abnormal one anyway (at least, on the phone). Motivated worker, well... you're at least more motivated than i am, but that's not too hard.

I'll bet that you find some magnificent trousers! *cuddle* try not to be depressed about how you fit into clothes, b'cause you look wonderful regardless.

Please no dehydration ;___; That is one of the scarier things that one can do to oneself with neglect. Drink much water ;___;

(feel free to call if you need or want some vocal cuddling?)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*clingsto*

I found some okay ones? Because it did freak me out. But I got a beautiful leather jacket for five dollars. >_> I feel like a biker chick, and for some reason this is a v. fun thing to feel like.

I can't help it! We ran out of water (we can't drink from our taps) and there wasn't anything in the house to drink otherwise. To-day we got more, but that was on Monday, so I hadn't had anything to drink except a water bottled I managed to badger Dad into buying. Not my fault! *hides*

(You are so wonderful. ♥. I was too out of it last night, though, I think. I would only have cried at you.)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

*holdson*

That's a good thing! I can totally picture you as a biker chick XD It's a strange but vivid image. Funny and cute, too.

Oh ;___; Poor soujin! (why can't you drink from your taps?) *cuddle* I'm sorry...!

(I would not have minded. Well, i would have minded the fact that you were crying, but, you know what i mean. You're still free to if you need/want)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*close*

^^ It's silly--!

I am. I am utterly tragic. *clingsto* (There's something in our taps that makes the water bad to drink.)

(♥)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

*adores*

*giggle* i'd like to see it ^__^ Silly is good.

Not all that tragic...! *clingswith* (That's too bad... Tap water is one of my favorite things to drink.)

(<3)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<3

Maybe I will take a picture in it for you. ^^;;

Nonono, intensely tragic! (I'm so used to not being able to drink it that when I go to other people's houses and so forth I always feel shy about it.)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

<3<3<333

I would like that like terrible ^___^

Not Oedipeanly tragic or anything...! (I always feel embarassed about going to other people's houses and finding out if they drink tap water or not!)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<33333333333

^^ Well, then! I will do it.

No, but still tragic! Small-scale tragedy. Pyramus and Thisbe? (*giggles* Awww. But you don't have any reason to be. ♥)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

^_____^ <3

hooray ^_^

No, no, not even Pyramus and Thisbe tragic... Perhaps Merchant of Venice-Third-Female-Lead-Whose-Name-I-Forgot-But-I-Think-It's-Jessica Tragic? (Nor do you! We're just silly ^_^)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^__^

&hearts

Oo, no, she's a good deal more tragic than I am--! (All right, I'll buy that.)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Well, Pyramus and Thisbe, when not a mockery of Romeo and Juliet, are more tragic than her! In a silly stupid way.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Oh, very well. Perhaps--the Tempest?

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

Oooh, perhaps! I think that one works quite well!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yay! *wins*

[tiamatschild.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuugs* I'm so sorry Shopping is hard for you, babe.

(Also, I like you. Whatever else, I like you.)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I wish it weren't. *holds* Is it ever bad for you?

(I love you.)

[tiamatschild.livejournal.com]

Not generally - sometimes searching for pants is sort of exasperating, because I'm so tall it's hard to find pants long enough, but it's not really the same thing. Shopping makes me feel pretty.

(love you too)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^___^ Someday I want to be just like you.

[tiamatschild.livejournal.com]

Aw! *snooglesyou*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*lovesupon*

[prouvairesylvie.livejournal.com]

You are NOT AT ALL pathetic! You're very nice, interesting, and from what I have seen, an awesome writer. And being a normal conservent isn't always a good thing! Listen to some good-feelings music, take a walk, hug an old stuffed animal, and drink tea... whatever makes you feel happy. *hugs* and good luck clothes shopping! It's always a pain.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥ Thank you. (It's an especially big problem for me, since I'm in recovery from an eating disorder and have distorted body image. So I tend to whine about it a lot on my LJ. XD)