"All That You Are is Not..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

I have been busy all day. <--I meant to type 'dizzy', which is possibly related to that fact. I have only been vaguely busy.

Yesterday, yesterday I was busy. It was another day of not really home at all, and then we were at the Oriental house until awfully late, and I got lost three times driving there by myself, all the Liverpool exits are ridiculously complicated, I'd just like to say that now, and the road directions to Oriental aren't much better. But. I got there an hour after I left, which is fairly good. It could have been longer! (I got lost again to-day by taking Morris Road instead of the one I usually take, but I made a few lucky guesses and ended up in the right place.)

I got off work early to-day because I was feeling sick and headachy, but I made myself go to the gym anyway, and now I'm feeling bothered that I did. I could have stayed home. I went yesterday and the day before and Thursday too. I do not want to be slipping. Please do not let me be slipping. I had homemade ice cream when I got home, though (cocoanut!), so that's maybe a good sign. I'm going to be fine-- I am.

And I wrote letters and thank-you notes to-day, and mostly fooled around. I didn't get much done, and Mum is leaving work. She was so happy, I know she was, but it's all gone now and she's tired and unhappy and quiet when she gets home from work and they cut all health benefits for part-time workers, which is what she is, and that's on top of the mandatory unpaid vacation time, and it's all very bad. So she's going to put her resume up and look for work somewhere else. It's so bad, because she really was happy. I want things to be okay so much, and they're not, and it's making me sick to my stomach.

But the raspberries, the black raspberries, they're up now.

(I'm still feeling sick. I do not have time to get sick, I don't. I have to draw up plans and get my work stuff in order, and I have to finish my work at the Oriental house, and there's house stuff and just so much to do. I had better not be sick. Plus we're leaving on Thursday, I have until Thursday to get everything done, and I really, really don't want to go to Tennessee. I know it's important, but I don't want to. I'm tired. And my boss keeps guilting me, and I really, really want her to stop because it makes me feel sick. Why does everything make me feel sick? Augh.)

...and I'm whining. Which Lesley told me not to do. I win. *puts a cut on the whining*

Comments

[nrtf.livejournal.com]

If your intersections and exits are half as bad as those in the south-western Ozarks, I pity you. Beyond the cryptic naming system, the notation "When the Waterline is Above the Top of This Sign, the Road is Unpassable" is incrediby awful. The beaurocrats have obviously been working doubletime. Feel better. I shower pixy dust of wellness upon you, so there.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Probably half as bad. XD And ha! We have that sign too! I love that! Thank you very much. ♥

[nrtf.livejournal.com]

On the one instance when the signs after exit HH were actually underwater, of course, we couldn't figure out what was wrong, until the car tried to float away. Mind you, that's the HH on the right, not the one on the left.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

That's really wonderful.

[nrtf.livejournal.com]

They should really limit those to one per county.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

They should, it's true.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*cuddles you* Too much stress onna Soujin.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

It shouldn't be. ;__; Just responsibilities!

[tiamatschild.livejournal.com]

*huuuugs* I'm sorry you're stressed out and not feeling well, babe.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*cliiings*

[nowgoesquickly.livejournal.com]

*cuddles you*

This is not technically a whine. Whining is verbal. This is just a complaint, and complaints aren't forbidden.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*leanson*

It's written whining!

[julietveiled.livejournal.com]

...Oh, my GOD I want coconut ice cream so freaking much I can't even tell you.

Also, you'd better feel better or I'll give you a REAL reason to feel sick. *waves fist in vaguely threatening manner...sort of*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Ha ha! It's really super and creamy and mmmmm.

;___; Yes, ma'am!

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

*snugglesonto*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*rests against*

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

*flails* *grabs+cuddles*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*clingstoclose*

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

*squeezesveryverytight*