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This year, the Episcopal Youth Retreat was just before Lent. As one of our activities, all of us were given a red ribbon and a yellow ribbon. On the yellow ribbon, we were to write a quality of Jesus' that we would like to try to emulate during the Lenten season. I put 'listening to people'; I've told this to quite a few folks now, who've asked.
On the red ribbon, we were to write a sin in us that we wanted to try to overcome. Nobody's asked about my sin.
It was arrogance. And I really, really don't think I'm overcoming it, I don't think so at all. I think it's just getting worse.
Also, my body has stopped working right.
On the red ribbon, we were to write a sin in us that we wanted to try to overcome. Nobody's asked about my sin.
It was arrogance. And I really, really don't think I'm overcoming it, I don't think so at all. I think it's just getting worse.
Also, my body has stopped working right.
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Date: 2008-03-14 02:38 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:08 am (UTC)Come on, honey. I know it's hard to accept love when you're upset with yourself, but I love you, and so does God. That's part of the point. You're not supposed to overcome your weaknesses yourself, so it's all right if you can't.
It's fine for me to love you, and it's fine for you to be loved. It doesn't even matter that I'm pretty sure your brain chemistry is screwing with your perception of yourself - even if you were a thousand times worse than you think you are, it would still be just right for me to love you.
*cuddles*
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:12 am (UTC)*clings and flails*
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:22 am (UTC)*huuugs*
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Date: 2008-03-14 02:39 am (UTC)Come talk to me?
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:23 am (UTC)If you don't feel like talking, that's okay too. But please do not involve me in your schemes for self-punishment. I love you, and I like to talk to you regardless of your confidence levels.
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:17 am (UTC)You're a wonderful human being and i love you greatly.
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:50 am (UTC)oh.
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:30 am (UTC)i haven't been working right, either. let's both wish each other better, miss.
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Date: 2008-03-14 03:34 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-03-14 04:02 am (UTC)metaphorically speaking, of course.
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Date: 2008-03-14 04:05 am (UTC)Thing is, with Christianity, we acknowledge the sin and we're washed clean of it. We let God step in and fix the crumbly bits of ourselves and the sharp, shattered bits of our souls broken in the Fall. I've had a lot of trouble with the idea myself- God wanting us to be perfect and all. That's impossible for anyone human.
We're not the ones who need to overcome ourselves from sheer force of will. All we need to do is to let go of the controls and let God step in. Gaining our lives by losing them and all- it's God who makes things change, not us, hard as that is to accept.
For what it's worth, I don't think you're arrogant in the slightest. Feel better, lady. They didn't ask about your sin because that's already been forgiven. <3
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