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ARGH why am I so depressed? I was fine Tuesday and Wednesday, and now I am back in the pits of despair. Argh argh argh.
Important Fact: It is
eegatland's birthday! She is the epitome of awesome, and should request fic(let).
I don't think there is enough Billy Joel in my life.
Mmmph.
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I don't think there is enough Billy Joel in my life.
Mmmph.
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Date: 2008-10-03 01:30 am (UTC)(Indeed! Indeed it is. *trots off*)
Also. Have Cyteen!River.
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When River wakes the room in her heart is a shambles, everything scattered every which way her vase is broken, her beautiful vase, and she can’t think how to put it back there’s too much to fix. She’s afraid. She’s afraid and the room is too neat and her heart pounds, physical heart, aorta and ventricles and all, because she is afraid, because the room is too neat, that is, the room she is sitting in, not the room that sits in her, room in her brain, and she’s –
Part of her knows she’s reacting all wrong, almost like a CIT, almost like, not like azi, which she is, like CIT, which she is not and never wanted to be and she is too frightened, too frightened, too frightened, she tries to be not there, to go somewhere else, but it doesn’t work because she’s not right. She wants Simon. She wants the supervisor, she wants Simon, everything’s wrong where is everyone it is not supposed to happen this way, the supervisor is supposed to be there when you need one, that’s the way it works, everything’s broken what and why and she doesn’t know she doesn’t understand she’s afraid. She wants Simon she wants her brother Simon Simon Simon.
“It was an accident,” they told Simon, “A miscalculation in the tape.”
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Date: 2008-10-03 01:57 am (UTC)AGH. *cries*