"Say Good-bye, My Baby..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

So to-night I completed my Safe Zones training, which means I am certified to make my room a place where anybody who is gay, lesbian, bi, bi-curious, queer, questioning, pan, asex, intersex, or any particular part of the alphabet soup you want, is safe to come. I get a pink triangle to put on my door, a reference to the Holocaust when gay men had to wear a pink triangle on their clothes.

I am extremely proud of this fact. I don't think everyone will know what it means, and I don't think that many people will probably take advantage of the fact, but I'm just glad that I did it and can have that symbol of a place of refuge.

I haven't really been--communicative lately, on my LJ, which I am aware of. Sort of a combination of mental health issues, school, and social expectations has been extremely overwhelming. Anyway, I thought I should post that I've been re-diagnosed with bipolar disorder and anxiety disorder, and am currently being medicated for both (and I hate the anti-anxiety med, wah wah wah, it makes my eyes blur and gives me haaaangovers wah).

I am currently writing a paper about why Attila the Hun was the most awesome person ever for my religion class (as well as reading Journey to the West! :D :D :D); we presented our election projection lab project on Monday and got an A, despite the fact that I lost my temper halfway through and yelled at our lab leader in front of the whole class and the teacher. >_> I think this is mostly because Obama won and the teacher was feeling very soothed and happy about it.

I have a bunch of friends and a crush (don't tell!). My current assertion project is letting women know when I think they're beautiful, in the most non-creepy way possible. I am secretary of All Ways of Loving, our queer and allies club on campus. My third bio exam is on Wednesday and I am ready, finally, to ROCK THAT DAMN THING. I have a ninety overall grade in pre-calc and I think I can push it up with the next exam and the calculus assignments I finished. I need to write a paper about why Barack Obama won the election and I'm not looking forward to it. I finished my IA course with an A; I have an A in religion. I think I have an A in CWS. I have an appointment to meet with a tutor for bio on Monday next. Friday night I get to go to a Hungarian dinner.

I drink way too much diet Dr. Pepper, but OMG you guys I have started under certain circumstances to drink things with a caloric content (not something I willingly have done for about four years). I am on the living kidney donor list (as a last resort only :P).

And I think I am finally starting to accept that fact that people love me, issues and all.

Comments

[canadabear.livejournal.com]

I am happy to hear all of this, Lady. Just give the meds a chance. I'm very proud of you. <3

[erinpuff]

*loves on* These sound like (mostly) good things. <3 I must give a special hurrah to Safe Zones training and the queer/allies club. :)

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

You are deeply beautiful, woman. I just--you realize how beautiful you sound in all of this, right? How much your love and bravery and joy shine through and fill me with light? Thank you. *smile*

[lokogato.livejournal.com]

You're a Safe Zone! *SO PROUD 8DDD* It's exciting that you guys have formal training for it!

:( Hopefully the meds will be helpful! If the anti-anxiety med gives you side-effects like that, is it possible to ask for something different? >_>

BUT ...

JOURNEY TO THE WEST REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY X9000

♥ LOVE.

[reconditarmonia.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[bewareofitalics]

You win. ♥ I suddenly feel like you grew up when I wasn't looking.

And I haven't read Journey to the West, but I have a musical based on it! :D Want it?

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*hugs and twirls you 'round*

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

I enjoy telling women that I like their aesthetic. The look of accepting befuddlement in their eyes delights me, but not as much as the look of "that's the coolest compliment I've ever heard" that occasionally appears instead.

That's too bad about the bipolar and anxiety disorders. But you're still exactly as awesome as you've ever been, and dealing with them proves your strength.

And I think I am finally starting to accept that fact that people love me, issues and all. It's about time! :p

I want safe zones training...!

[ewein2412]

goodness me. of course you are loved. accept and enjoy!

!!!♥!!!

[tomboy-typist.livejournal.com]

YES. Seriously. You are. So. Much.

Be good to yourself. Always.

*hugs and stuff* You are wonderful and magical. Srsly.

[softerthansound.livejournal.com]

And I think I am finally starting to accept that fact that people love me, issues and all.
You have no idea how wonderful that is to hear.

[azurai.livejournal.com]

*Hug* I love you. And it is so awesome that you are certified with the whole Safe-Zones program. Congratulations!