"They Should Have Known Because We Told Them So..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

I am planning my untimely death from pre-school nerviness. The professors, they keep sending me e-mails! I have to write down all this stuff and I haven't got a notebook here with me! Ngggah. Also my God no one sells Diet Dr. Pepper it is completely immoral and barbaric.

But the sunsets here are really nice. The lake tends to turn white from the light shining off it, and it stretches pretty far, white and still and shining.

Maria finally stopped getting angry at me; we've been watching loads of X-Men: Evolution, and it's cheered her up unbelievably. It's so nice to have her reasonably happy again. And to-morrow we're going home; I'll pack up the last of my things and by Sunday afternoon I should be settled in at school again, which I'll be glad to be. I think most of anything I hate transitioning. I don't mind changes, and I have a hard time feeling displaced; I sort of make where-ever I am my home; but I really, really hate travelling to get there, or the jittery feeling you get when something's about to change but hasn't gotten around to it yet. Ugh ugh.

I think the Depakote might be working, though. The screaming in my head has gone away, and I don't really feel as angry any more. I still get irritated and stressed out, but I'm not just absolutely furious at everyone. So! Little forward steps.

Comments

[erinpuff]

I think most of anything I hate transitioning. I don't mind changes, and I have a hard time feeling displaced; I sort of make where-ever I am my home; but I really, really hate travelling to get there, or the jittery feeling you get when something's about to change but hasn't gotten around to it yet. Ugh ugh.

I'm like that too. The last couple weeks before moving were pretty hard for me in all sorts of ways, but now that I'm here, I feel totally at home and fine (except now I have to stress out about school, aaaaah!).

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Exactly! And I think as soon as the first week is over and I'm back into the rhythm of how school goes, I'll be totally relaxed.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

The screaming in my head has gone away, and I don't really feel as angry any more.

YAY.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I KNOW RIGHT. It is so nice to putter around without "AHHHHHHHHHHH" going on and on and on.

[josiana.livejournal.com]

Eeep. Don't be nervous, I'm sure it will go well. &hearts

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

XD Well, so far no one's dead.

[green0dove.livejournal.com]

Yay for little forward steps! <3

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

How about you? How's it going at Goshen?

[raanve]

I'm the same way with transitions. *hugs* Of course, since I'm somehow late to this entry, maybe you're well on your way to settled? (Which also means that I should get THINGS in the mail to you, yes?)

The screaming in the head thing? I am so glad I am not the only one who has that sensation!! When things were especially Not Good (and I wasn't in treatment), I used to be really worried as I fell asleep that I was going to wake Nick up w/random screaming. It was just like one long AHHHHH or HELPHELPHELP. So unsettling.

Stick with it - little forward steps are a good thing. :) <3 <3

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I am in my room now! In college! :D So yes, send me stuff, I demand my tribute.

Oh, God, it's not just me? That is such a relief to hear, it was so horrible and creepy and made me feel so icky. Mine was always the AHHHHHH.

Thank you. ♥.

[raanve]

Ok, good! Your tribute will be on its way soon, milady, I promise.

And yeah. I always thought it was so weird. Bleh.

<3

(Narrowly missed having Rhi post this. Gragh.)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Bwee! ^___^

It's creepy.

(XD I used to do that all the time.)