"And They're Calling Me By My Name..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

I gave blood this afternoon when I really shouldn't have, and was sick for the rest of the day; I nearly threw up during my reporter practicum and then again during rural healthcare issues (which would have been mildly ironic, but no). I also had a panic attack in the stairs, although that was only partly from anxiety, the other part being from the blood-giving, which for some reason caused me to tach, I have no idea why. I like giving blood, so there shouldn't be any white-coat syndrome.

But I did finally get my prescription, so hopefully the mania is going to clear up soon. Although actually my roommate went to bed shortly ago and turned off the lights when she did, so I'm not manic any more, I'm on the verge of tears, hello light affective depression, so sorry your vacation was a short one.

School is going fine when I can concentrate on it. Maria's horrifying college situation also seems like it might be evening out a little. My social life is weirdly coherent, considering how frequently I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I hope to be not in the hospital for Hallowe'en this year! There are many good things going on right now, I'm just not in a position to appreciate them at the moment.

I just need to keep reminding myself of that fact.

Comments

[the-chloroplast.livejournal.com]

So things are good and bad at once, then?

Also I do not envy you that light/dark = happy/sad thing. That really sucks in a big way. Big Hug, dear.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, kinda.

It's SO ANNOYING, because I won't have ANYTHING to be upset about, and then--instant tears! just add dark!

[raanve]

*snugs*

I got myself a lightbox - I am hoping it works. It's only just the beginning of autumn and already I'm feeling like the lack of light will be a problem.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*loves*

Mmm. Someday I should invest in one of those. >_>

[raanve]

Yeah, they are spendy. My psych has been recommending it since last year, though, so since we were able to afford one right now I went ahead and got one. I haven't started using it just yet (I need to learn how to wake up on time, grr) but I got one that wasn't super-expensive, so. I hope it works!

*pets*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes! I hope so too! I know some people who have had AWESOME success with one, so!

[tinyammmy]

*hugs, as ever*

And I was miserable at college for a semester, then had the best three and a half years of my life directly after. I'm hoping Maria will have an equally dramatic trade.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

See, and I wish it would be like that for her, but she already wants to transfer out.

[josiana.livejournal.com]

;_________________; &hearts

I'm glad you have your prescription. And I hope you won't be in the hospital.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

pfff, I doubt it. ♥