"It's My Daddy and Nebraska and Jesus Christ..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Apparently this week is "Honours Soujin Doesn't Actually Deserve" week. Ugh.

--my poetry study professor wants to put one of my poems up on the English dept. website, and, I'll be honest, I'm actually deeply flattered and thrilled by this and super excited. That's awesome.

--my religion professor wants me to take my research paper for his class and turn it into a presentation for our liberal arts symposium this spring. This is completely unwarranted, as a) my paper is weirdly ill-defined and not remotely qualified, b) NOT EVEN ACTUALLY WRITTEN YET, and c) talks about intercultural religious issues, which I think are fascinating, but which because I am not actually Islamic consistently make me feel like a Privileged White Western Person talking about Shit I Have No Actual Experience With. So I am terrified. And I don't want the responsibility urgh.

--on a totally different scale, my other religion professor wrote something along the lines of "blah blah you left out a bunch of important stuff in this paper and it's pretty glaring and painful but you can grammar okay so I will give you an A because you need a pat on the back you little dumbass" on my feedback, and I kind of just wish he'd given me a B and not said anything, because it feels gross. The history professor who co-teaches the class with him, when I wept about it to her, said he's been in a really bad mood this semester and super critical of everyone, but it still makes me feel awful.

--I am getting a solid B in Cog Psych, and I'm okay with that, because I thought I was going to do a lot worse.

Comments

lol lol kudos is yours suck it up

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

Recently I made a start on "The Twelve Wild Swans", which Starhawk co-wrote with Hilary Valentine. In the intro they talk about their intention to "model shared power" - instead of a single leader, teacher, or author, the authority is shared by two or more. I wonder if this could possibly be useful for your presentation: see if there's a Muslimah who'd be interested in being your co-presenter.

As for your grumpy prof, his grumpiness is his problem, not yours. But if Mr. Super-Critical grudgingly gave you an A, the paper must've been pretty cracking even with bits missing. :)

argh

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I thought about asking the girl I interviewed, Airohksh, but I kind of came to a different conclusion in that paper than the one she posited during the interview, which makes me nervous. >_> I don't really want to be "and in conclusion, X" after she implied Y during the interview. Also, she's really really really cute and I stutter around her.

ARGHHH. It was that one about medieval Christianity. Which I actually felt was pretty good. >_< Argh to everything.

Re: argh

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

If you get on reasonably well with her (despite the stuttering), you could possibly use the talk to explore the differences between your conclusions - not who's right and who's wrong, but why you don't 100% agree. Or do a second interview with her discussing your paper, and then use it in your talk. You could always lure her into it with promises of sexual favours. >:)

Re: argh

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

As a general rule of thumb, if I have a crush on a girl, she's straight. :P

I actually haven't talked to her much -- we do the smile and say hi thing now, but I haven't talked to her besides the interview. The idea of a second interview might be a possibility, though. I also wonder whether there are any other Afghani students I could pester. >_>

[canadabear.livejournal.com]

Talk to your religion professor about your reservations. Perhaps they haven't considered it the way you are and it may make them be able to help you find a way for it to be more inclusive as opposed to you simply talking to people about Shit You Have No Actual Experience With.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

He kind of went "I think you're making this argument because you're actually scared of public speaking" and I said "..." and hated myself for-ever because I think maybe he's right. >_< He tends to be.