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When I was in EDNOS Support at Pinnacle a few years ago, Christine, the group leader, said that we were never allowed to mention specifics. Thus, "I ate to-day!" was okay; "I ate some chicken and ice cream!" was not. "I lost too much weight" was okay; "I lost one-hundred sixty pounds" was not.
And I at first did not really get this; although it led to many disturbingly hilarious jokes, like the time Sandra asked us if she could say she went to the store to buy cat food without triggering anybody. But--now I do. Because the more I give it thought, the more it seems like it's definitely specifics that trigger me.
"I exercised to-day"? No problem. "I jogged three miles," and I'm in a corner. It's--definitely it's a pattern. I can't handle specifics because when I have specifics I can make measurements, and when I make measurements I can make comparisons, and they're always unfavourable. Because that's how I operate.
It's sort of interesting to realise.
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It rained again to-day very fine; I was pleased about that. Went to the doctor and got lots of shots, also Amish market with great success generally. And the books I bought for Maria came to-day! And I bought a slinky dress. >_> Because it was two-dollars-fifty. And purple. And I fail.
And I at first did not really get this; although it led to many disturbingly hilarious jokes, like the time Sandra asked us if she could say she went to the store to buy cat food without triggering anybody. But--now I do. Because the more I give it thought, the more it seems like it's definitely specifics that trigger me.
"I exercised to-day"? No problem. "I jogged three miles," and I'm in a corner. It's--definitely it's a pattern. I can't handle specifics because when I have specifics I can make measurements, and when I make measurements I can make comparisons, and they're always unfavourable. Because that's how I operate.
It's sort of interesting to realise.
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It rained again to-day very fine; I was pleased about that. Went to the doctor and got lots of shots, also Amish market with great success generally. And the books I bought for Maria came to-day! And I bought a slinky dress. >_> Because it was two-dollars-fifty. And purple. And I fail.
