"The World Revives; Colours Renew; But I Know Blue, Only Blue..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Hate myself. Hate, hate, hate.

Life is not good. I am increasingly pathetic. I have absolutely no willpower, and evidentally little to no talent. Of course, this last item is nothing more than a plea for sympathy, because I am gratuitous.

Waen does not like anything I do. She said I'm just like Kate.

Why can't I make her proud of me?

Also, my diet has committed hara-kiri. It is quite dead. I shall never be beautiful. Not this week. And probably I shall cry to-morrow at Weigh-In, because I do.

Nana so insane.

And I, I am imperfect. Hate. Hate.

*crawls under a rock and stays there forever*

Comments

[mmebahorel.livejournal.com]

Everyone is imperfect, therefore you can't hate yourself for it unless you despise all of humanity for that particular reason. And I know you don't. Therefore you can't hate yourself for being human.

Also remember that there is a difference between being skinny and being healthy. The former is not an ideal state if it jeopardises the latter. Exercise is always better than not eating, anyway.

(and even us skinny people sometimes feel like shit about how we look. I'm at a perfectly healthy weight, except everything I gained is in my stomach rather than somewhere it would do some good, so I need to start exercising in an attempt to redistribute the fat if it won't go away. And I think I consumed less than 1000 calories today. I don't think that's a good thing. So see, we're all very very screwed up.)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I love everyone and hate myself. Humanity is different from me. Me-hate is, perhaps, different from hate of imperfection; or perhaps it is just hate of imperfection in myself. At any rate, I can dislike me and still love everybody else.

>_> I know, but I have a nice little signed doctor's order, and considering the family history of diabetes, &c, it seems like something I ought to do. Also, I feel that I would like myself more and therefore be better in social situations (since before I joined WW, I was actually dropping out of every single activity that put me somewhere people could look at me. It was not good). I am trying to exercise more, however.

(*wails* I knowww! All is doom and gloom! ;_; Alas. Good luck with exercising, though!)