"The Wickedest Witch There Ever Was..."
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psalm_onethirtyoneI was just thinking about how much I like to be petted and cuddled.
Not in a romantic way, of course; I've never had romantic aspirations towards real people, anyway; but--I like it when people ruffle my hair and hug me for no reason. I like it online, where there's quite the possibility of it happening, but I wish people did it more in real life. I think, perhaps, I'm pricklier in real life.
I was just thinking about it because Ray (at acting) sometimes does it. She says I remind her of herself when she was younger, and she pets me and touches my hair sometimes, and I really, really like that.
I'd rather be quiet and sit beside someone who was playing with my hair and talking to another person than I would talk to the first person, sometimes. I'm an entirely disgraceful attention-whore, and the way I talk doesn't exactly make me good cuddling material, unless you like your cute little things geeky, and I suppose that's probably a good part of why people don't do it as much as I'd enjoy.
A couple of times a week, when I know I'm doing something where I'll be around people not too much older than I am (such as acting), I try to dress so that people like Ray might play with me. I wear skirts instead of dresses, and I never wear trousers any longer (ever since I started work, actually, I haven't, because my people like it better. Most of them think that girls ought to wear dresses, and I comply), and I like my silly-pretty socks. I've been wearing pigtails more often, too.
I don't like to be in control as much as I often am. I have a very imperious way of talking, as well as my rather overblown language usage, and I think it makes me sound a little distant and overeducated, and in control of myself. But I'd much rather be not in control if I could have someone petting me instead.
I like Epimethius because of that. He is cuddly. He's silly and overenthusiastic and he just adores everybody in the world for no reason at all. As Janet says, he's somewhat 'dumb', but that tends to add to his charm. When I'm Epimethius, everyone talks to me. When I'm me, mostly I sit by myself in the far corner of the room and read something.
I'd rather be Epimethius.
Why am I like this? I want to be loved on, literally and figuratively.Perhaps this is another effect of my HORRIBLE, TRAUMATISING, LOVELESS childhood in public school. I don't know. I like to write characters who people love, too. I just want--I want people to like me, and I like having like expressed physically, I suppose. H'm.
In other news, got out Jane Eyre at the library. Ooh.
Not in a romantic way, of course; I've never had romantic aspirations towards real people, anyway; but--I like it when people ruffle my hair and hug me for no reason. I like it online, where there's quite the possibility of it happening, but I wish people did it more in real life. I think, perhaps, I'm pricklier in real life.
I was just thinking about it because Ray (at acting) sometimes does it. She says I remind her of herself when she was younger, and she pets me and touches my hair sometimes, and I really, really like that.
I'd rather be quiet and sit beside someone who was playing with my hair and talking to another person than I would talk to the first person, sometimes. I'm an entirely disgraceful attention-whore, and the way I talk doesn't exactly make me good cuddling material, unless you like your cute little things geeky, and I suppose that's probably a good part of why people don't do it as much as I'd enjoy.
A couple of times a week, when I know I'm doing something where I'll be around people not too much older than I am (such as acting), I try to dress so that people like Ray might play with me. I wear skirts instead of dresses, and I never wear trousers any longer (ever since I started work, actually, I haven't, because my people like it better. Most of them think that girls ought to wear dresses, and I comply), and I like my silly-pretty socks. I've been wearing pigtails more often, too.
I don't like to be in control as much as I often am. I have a very imperious way of talking, as well as my rather overblown language usage, and I think it makes me sound a little distant and overeducated, and in control of myself. But I'd much rather be not in control if I could have someone petting me instead.
I like Epimethius because of that. He is cuddly. He's silly and overenthusiastic and he just adores everybody in the world for no reason at all. As Janet says, he's somewhat 'dumb', but that tends to add to his charm. When I'm Epimethius, everyone talks to me. When I'm me, mostly I sit by myself in the far corner of the room and read something.
I'd rather be Epimethius.
Why am I like this? I want to be loved on, literally and figuratively.
In other news, got out Jane Eyre at the library. Ooh.
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Date: 2005-04-16 02:05 pm (UTC)*squees at the ruffles* Yes, see, that's one of my things. I'm not shy unless I'm pretending to be to see if I can make people think I'm completely different from the way I really am. I like to act. *g* If I ever met you IRl, I am absolutely certain I should SEE YOU HUG YOU LOVE YOU, because, really, you are very wicked cool.
And I keep meaning to add you to my flist, and then getting distracted. Aggh!I do that, too. ^_^ But I don't think you were here. *hug*
*When I actually get started reading it. Me = procrastinator, shameless.