"I am a Poster Girl with No Poster..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

They accepted me. And they gave me a scholarship.

I'm going to college.

Also, one of Paul's sheep dropped two lambs this week. Their tails haven't been clipped yet, and they're so long they reach the ground. They even stood still long enough for me to get some photographs.

And on the way home we saw a tom turkey in the tree over the Mahantango.

Comments

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

Lady? I hate to invade your thread, and I don't in any way want to cause you grief by it. I don't ever want to cause you grief in anything--you're outrageously dear to me, and I'd sooner see myself hurt a thousand times over than do the slightest harm to you.

It hurts, though, to know that I've betrayed you and hurt you and was (worse) so insensitive that I didn't realize how unkind I was being. I had thought that, when you said everything was all right, that really meant everything was All Right, because I take things literally and I don't think like a girl, and I'll believe what people say about what they feel. It's wrong of me to think like that, because humans don't communicate like that, but I do.

I can't bear that I've hurt you, and I know I can never make it up to you, but I do hope that you'll tell me next time I do. I hope that you tell me right away, because even if I'll feel like the most horrible person on the planet for a little while, I'll work to fix whatever I'm doing. I'll try to stop hurting you however I can, and (selfishly), I won't spend a long time hating how awful I've been. It's not how people usually communicate, telling each other exactly how they feel and why, but it's all I know how to do, and it's all I understand.

I'm so sorry that I didn't understand what grief I'd done you, lady.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Gil? It's okay now. Of course you didn't know what I was feeling; I wasn't exactly forthcoming. There's no reason to be upset. I promise. It's okay now.

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

I know it's okay now (I hope I know right, at least), but the future's what concerns me. I never want to hurt you, and that's hard and fast. Will you tell me if I do?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Well, I really don't think you will, but if you do, yes, I'll let you know; if that's for your peace of mind.

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

It is. I know it's past, but apologies are for the past. I was an idiot, and I caused more harm than I knew (probably still more than I know) to a person I love. I wish I had a better way to atone for it than resolving to do better in the future.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I understand that you didn't mean to hurt me. I am moving past the whole thing, and I've talked it over with Kylee, and you don't need to get upset. Everything's okay.