"Flight of the Seabirds, Flutter Like Lost Words..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

When I was in EDNOS Support at Pinnacle a few years ago, Christine, the group leader, said that we were never allowed to mention specifics. Thus, "I ate to-day!" was okay; "I ate some chicken and ice cream!" was not. "I lost too much weight" was okay; "I lost one-hundred sixty pounds" was not.

And I at first did not really get this; although it led to many disturbingly hilarious jokes, like the time Sandra asked us if she could say she went to the store to buy cat food without triggering anybody. But--now I do. Because the more I give it thought, the more it seems like it's definitely specifics that trigger me.

"I exercised to-day"? No problem. "I jogged three miles," and I'm in a corner. It's--definitely it's a pattern. I can't handle specifics because when I have specifics I can make measurements, and when I make measurements I can make comparisons, and they're always unfavourable. Because that's how I operate.

It's sort of interesting to realise.

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It rained again to-day very fine; I was pleased about that. Went to the doctor and got lots of shots, also Amish market with great success generally. And the books I bought for Maria came to-day! And I bought a slinky dress. >_> Because it was two-dollars-fifty. And purple. And I fail.

Comments

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yes! This area is full of wonderful thrift stores. I buy all my clothes in such venues. :D Maybe I will! Just to surprise people. If I can get over my leg issues.

I think the brain must be able to seize on specifics better. It must be something about the preciseness of detail or something. And--those too.

[assimbya.livejournal.com]

Thrift stores really are wonderful. I go to them a fair amount myself, though, being in New York, even there there aren't really prices quite that good. And that would be fun, the surprising people! You could wear tights/stockings with it maybe, if that would help with the leg issues? I don't know if it would, but I suppose it's possible.

Yes, that makes sense. It can be problematic to try to explain to people, though - they'll always go, "But you weren't bothered by that!" or something.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I could do that, I didn't think of that. I think I have tights somewhere.

Yes! I don't know why, I think it's because you can't wholly understand how affecting it is unless you're affected, briefly.