"Ride On, Through the Night, Ride On..."
Nov. 10th, 2009 10:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Back to the whole frantic sleeping-in-my-clothes frazzled-every-minute-of-the-day thing. I think I'm annoying the hell out of everybody, too--definitely feeling like friends are being cooler than usual.
So tired all the time. I feel like I'm always working but never getting anything done; I have a French exam to-morrow that I have literally not studied for, I barely understand my o.chem, I have two papers to write on Friday and a research project due Tuesday the twenty-fourth, plus LAB which I hate not because it's hard but because it eats away huge chunks of my time for no discernible purpose. And I just. So. tired.
On the plus side, I love les femmes.
On the down, I feel like things are slipping out of my hands in a way I can't control. Come back, come back. I can't stand this feeling of helplessless, I hate knowing that I can't shape things into sense. This afternoon I kidnapped a girl out of my titrations lab and ranted at her about a bunch of things that scare me right now. She ran away. I need to get control.
So tired all the time. I feel like I'm always working but never getting anything done; I have a French exam to-morrow that I have literally not studied for, I barely understand my o.chem, I have two papers to write on Friday and a research project due Tuesday the twenty-fourth, plus LAB which I hate not because it's hard but because it eats away huge chunks of my time for no discernible purpose. And I just. So. tired.
On the plus side, I love les femmes.
On the down, I feel like things are slipping out of my hands in a way I can't control. Come back, come back. I can't stand this feeling of helplessless, I hate knowing that I can't shape things into sense. This afternoon I kidnapped a girl out of my titrations lab and ranted at her about a bunch of things that scare me right now. She ran away. I need to get control.
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Date: 2009-11-11 05:03 am (UTC)Les femmes aiment tu aussi, citoyenne.
/hideously bad French
That's going to be so useful for art. >__>
Eeep, I hope things calm down soon. Is there anyone who could help you with this stuff and isn't similarly occupied?
I'm so sorry you're in this position right now.
♥
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Date: 2009-11-11 05:33 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-11-11 05:55 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-11-11 03:32 pm (UTC)Are you art history?
Nnnnot really? Well, I see my therapist to-day, that's supposed to be something.
(no subject)
Date: 2009-11-11 04:28 pm (UTC)No, just creepy. ^^;
oh dear, I'm sorry. I would offer if I could. D: I hope the therapist can help a bit, at least
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Date: 2009-11-11 06:05 pm (UTC)Nah. <3
It's okay. I think she prolly will be, since I like her a whole lot.
(no subject)
Date: 2009-11-12 06:32 am (UTC)^^;;
I'm glad. &hearts
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Date: 2009-11-12 02:45 pm (UTC)♥ Thank you for worrying.
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Date: 2009-11-11 05:18 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-11-11 06:06 pm (UTC)