"He Said, I Am Not Fighting For You Any More..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

By the way, I think I need to see Dr. Viktorrr again. I performed emergency toe surgery again to-day, with the result that they're both bleeding and it hurts madly to walk (since emergency toe surgery involves a pair of nail clippers, a cuticle trimmer, and occasionally a swiss army knife, this perhaps comes as a surprise to no one). Mum has actually confiscated the cuticle trimmer, and I am not allowed to use it any more. Honestly, my hand slipped. I wasn't really planning to cut that deeply into the nail bed.

At any rate, the emergency surgery did not actually work, and my toenails are still growing back into my feet as persistently as they have been for the last three years. >______< So to-morrow I set up an apartment. This time I am going to get them both removed entirely. I am quite tired of dealing with them. I hate the anesthesia that does not work, I hate being scared to death, it hurts too much, they always grow back, and Dr. Viktorrr hates me. It is time to get this over and done with.

I shall not be sorry to see them go.

Edit: Oh, but I forgot the best part! Waen decided to contribute some advice.

Waen: Just leave them alone!
Soujin: I caaan't. I just can't stop doing it.
Waen: Look at it this way, okay? Your toes--all your toes--are choirboys. And every time you perform your toe surgery, you're like a Catholic priest touching them inappropriately.
Soujin: ...oh, god. What did you just--I mean. Oh, God.
Waen: REMEMBER, SOUJIN. EVERY TIME YOU HURT YOUR TOES, IT'S LIKE YOU JUST MOLESTED A CHOIRBOY.
Soujin: I--I-- I can't believe you just said. I can't--I mean, God, I can't--
Waen: I thought that would help. >:D

Comments

[lokogato.livejournal.com]

... you did WHAT with WHAT to your WHAT?11?1?1///??!!ONESLASH?

... 'demoiselle. Please to see doctor instead of performing self-surgery. Is not good for anyone's heart. ;________;!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Well. See. When my toenails start to grow in, I'm well aware the doctor's visits are expensive, so usually I try to avoid them by performing the emergency surgery myself, which usually keeps it off for another couple of months. Usually this works. Of late, it has been making more pain. I think the tremor is making it harder than it needs to be.

But, see, I am! I promise! I call to-morrow...!

[lokogato.livejournal.com]

... but the CHOIRBOYS???? (Tell Waen she > world, by the way. XDDD) Surgery is not for those without extensive medical training. ;____;!

DID YOU??! ;____;!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

X___________________X I plan to have extensive medical training. This is practise.

But yes, I did.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

ACK SOUJIN. ;___;

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

It probably wouldn't help to tell you that I was doing it while I was on the telephone with you?

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*GUILT*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

And that Mum walked in on me and I quickly concealed everything? Waen said, YOU'RE LIKE A DRUG ADDICT. CHRIST.

[erinpuff]

Eeeeeewwww. *sympathetic but thoroughly squicked-out flail*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know. Is gross. ^^

[bewareofitalics]

OMG YOUR FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET! *flails*

(...oh come on, you knew that was coming. *g* But that doesn't make it any less sincere. *hugstight* Good luck! *...had a gut reaction to change that "good luck" to "break a leg." under the circumstances, um, NO*)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

OMG I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. *wails*

(I did. Of course. ^__^ Loveyou, thank you. <3333 Really.)

[bewareofitalics]

IT'S ALL MY FAULT, ISN'T IT. I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LET YOU WALK BAREFOOT IN THE SNOW.

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

...

Hey, you.

Doctor's visits may be expensive, but home medical care causes more doctor's visits. Seriously. Go to the doctor; get it done right. You're too sensible for this, okay?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

...

Hey.

I know. >____< But we're so short on money right now that I'm getting desperate. But I will. Even though Dr. Viktorrr HATES ME. ;___________________;

[silverdragon262.livejournal.com]

...

Hi.

Liebling, I'm going to tell you something in all seriousness, okay? That is not the way to cut costs. Stationery, yes. Films, yes. Eating out, yes. But anything involving your health-- and I mean your feet, your eating, your prozac, and everything else-- that's not what you sacrifice. That's the last thing you sacrifice. At the very least, tell Mum; if she decides something can be let go or taken care of at home, that's another story, but the second opinion is paramount. Hiding things and/or hurting yourself more (even by accident)-- I guarantee you that you're not that short on money.

All right? Let me say that again: no matter how tight money is at the moment, you're more important.

But I'm glad you're going to the doctor.

[meteorspark.livejournal.com]

jdsklfjsdlfs SOUJIN. ;______________;

Listen to your platonic soulmate, fjslfs.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I will. *hides*

[meteorspark.livejournal.com]

*pulls out of hiding* Nono, no hiding. It'll be okay. Take care of yourself, please.

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

*curls up around you like a dog and bathes your feet in warm water and wraps your feet in linen* Please, please, consult a professional before you do something on your own. Because chances are, the professional will tell you not to. And while no choirboy analogies will be used, you will perhaps be convinced?

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*curls up softly next to, and snuggles close* Oh--I love you. I'm sorry. I'll telephone to-morrow and set up an appointment. I know it's stupid.

[snowyofthenight.livejournal.com]

...your sister is cool. XD

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

She is TEH CRAZY, you mean. XD

[karla-yonit.livejournal.com]

<3 you. <3 Waen. Plz don't hurt your feet.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Taking care. ♥