"If To-Morrow was To-Day..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

In brief:

To everyone's surprise, Natalie is not the one who's pregnant. The honour goes to Val, Daniel's long-time girlfriend. They're getting married. I'll be an aunt.

My grandfather is dying. He has inoperable cancer; we can't tell him because he won't remember. Mama said we'll be lucky if he lives to his ninetieth birthday in December.

I'm giving blood on Tuesday and God, I need this so bad.

I'm serving Eucharist at church to-morrow and should really be in bed right now, especially given that I haven't taken my antipsychotic mood stabiliser* yet and it will put me out for about ten hours.

*not that I'm bitter

I have got to get out of here, things have got to even up, the natural order of things is still natural but I'm losing my ability to handle it anyway. Oh, God, I wish it were a different day. I don't know how to face church right now.

Comments

[nowgoesquickly.livejournal.com]

*hugs you, hugs you, hugs you*

So much love. Things will get better.

[erinpuff]

*hugs yoooooooouuuuuu*

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

*hugs tightly*

[tinyammmy]

Feel better, love. And condolences, about your grandfather.

[bewareofitalics]

*huuuuuugs*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

*hugs forever*

[reconditarmonia.livejournal.com]

*holdsyouuuuu*

[snowyofthenight.livejournal.com]

♥

[eremon-lass.livejournal.com]

*sugglelove*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

♥

[raanve]

*hugs*

I'm sorry things are hard. I'm here if you need me. (Soon I will have complete mixes. And if you'd be cheered by a letter or card, I have lots of pretty stationery, so all you need do is make the request!)

[tomecatti.livejournal.com]

<3

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about your grandfather. I hope he is not in pain/

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

He doesn't seem to be. Mostly his just his usual explosion-haired pipe-smoking silly self.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

That's good. Cancer and memory at the same time is...oof.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Yeah. >_< He's not doing chemo, so Mama says he basically won't feel any effects until it metatisises to his bones.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

Hopefully it won't go there. But hospice care is really good and they have all kinds of pain medication now. They try really hard to make sure the person is as comfortable as possible.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know, they're going to take good care of him. <3 I'm just really going to miss my granddaddy.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

Yeah. :(

[the-chloroplast.livejournal.com]

That really is horrible, and I hope the cancer is kind to him, as kind as cancer can be anyway, and not hurt. And I hope you're okay. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<3 Thank you so much.