"All is Working--Try to Relax..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Well, I have no idea what to do with my life, for the record.

I'm still doing med school prerequisites, and working on my religion major, and actually planning my senior thesis, which I am really psyched about, but I have no idea what kind of career I want and whether I should still bother trying to get into med school, after the disaster of my internship.

And I think maybe the Depakote is making me more depressed. I don't know whether that's unreasonable or not; I just feel like I've been sadder lately. But maybe that's just me. I wish I knew.

I go from being really happy to kind of wanting to find a quiet place to cry, which is where I am now. But I'm also reading about saints, which I think is cool and I really like, so maybe I just need to go and hide somewhere with my saints book and see if that helps.

I wish I didn't feel so weird and inconclusive.

Comments

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

No, no. There are rules about how I'm allowed to feel vs. how other people are allowed to feel, and other people are so allowed to be confused, but I'm not.

*clings*

Oh, that is so cool. I always wanted to be confirmed catholic so I could have an extra name, and I've always been disappointed that I wasn't. My favourite saint is Christopher.

[raanve]

Soujin, I love you, but that's plain silly. Everyone in the universe is confused. It's the human condition. (Would that it were not so, but then maybe life would get boring fast.)

The Church & I have parted ways, but saints are good. :D I have a little Saint Gertrude here (patron saint of cats), and they can help you find stuff, and sometimes St. Claire (of migraines) gets a shout out from me. Saints appeal to me because I'm superstitious by nature, I think. ;P

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

No No No no no I will not hear this. Sorry. No.

Oh God, St. Claire is my current go-to, although she was totally CRAZY according to her biography. I think that does help, though.