"And I Bet You're Making Shells Back Home..."

[psalm_onethirtyone]

Dear Phil:

You are a sweetheart. You are a lovely lovely person and a good friend and believe me I know and appreciate this fact. I do. But we need to talk about something.

Phil, you actually know, unlike many people out there with whom I am friends, that I am in remission for an eating disorder. And I know that you just care about my health and want to make sure I am doing okay, but, for God's sake, Phil, can you please please shut up about my portion sizes?

Because, see, when you comment on how much I'm eating it reaffirms for me a very unpleasant idea, the idea that everyone in the world ever is watching me eat and judging me for what I eat. I know it seems like one little comment to you, but for me it means everyone is judging me ahhhhhhh. And then I have to go home and cry all night.

So please stop.

Love,
Soujin

addendum to Liz: Thank you for saying that it only looked like a lot of ice cream because it was in a bowl instead of a cup like everyone else's. And for saying that I was sick and deserved lots of ice cream anyway. You are a true friend. ♥

Comments

[lokogato.livejournal.com]

:( HOPEFULLY PHIL GETS A CLUE. *sends internet ice-cream*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Phil has a fatness phobia. It's sad.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Auuuuuugh. *beans him on the head*

You DO deserve lots of ice cream. Also chicken soup, chocolate, and stickers. Because yes.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Mmmm. I wish I could taste those things. Except the stickers, I guess.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

At least you have an angry octopus icon. <3 And I sent your box yesterday! It should be there by the weekend!

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Ohhh! You are so great!

I'm sorry I haven't been on, I have three essays that are due pretty much to-night (the due time is 11:55 p.m. aggggh) so I am in crazy person mode which hopefully will ease up shortly.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa poor soujin. <333

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

;______; I am piggiful.

[mhari.livejournal.com]

You are a bean. *waters*

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

*blooms a little?*

[mhari.livejournal.com]

eeee soujinblossoms.

(I appear to finally be online!)

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

^____^

(so do I! dear GOD!)

[gileonnen.livejournal.com]

Ack, that's just unfortunate. Liz sounds spectacular and Phil can go suck on an ice lolly.

Thank you for reminding me--I need to go have ice cream at some point. <333

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

ICE CREAM WOO.

[reconditarmonia.livejournal.com]

<3 Liz <333333 Soujin

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

<33333 Rebecca.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

What! He should know better. :(

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

He should, but he pretty much doesn't.

[holyschist.livejournal.com]

:( :( :(

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

I know. :/

[josiana.livejournal.com]

*clings* D': That's not sensitive at all.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

It's--ehhhh.

[perculious.livejournal.com]

The only people who actually care about what other people eat are people who are VERY INSECURE ABOUT THEIR OWN PORTION SIZES and are projecting unfairly! Ice cream has lots of protein and is therefore good for you. Take it from someone who never gets enough protein. ♥ Also, I am not in remission from an eating disorder, and if someone told me they thought I was eating too much I would probably also go home and cry all night because that's a mean thing to say. There is no such thing as eating too much—there's only eating what you want to eat and what feels right to you. There should never be any sort of moral judgment assigned to that.

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Phil has a phobia of fat people. It--is very frustrating and triggery sometimes. Usually I just ignore it and try to keep things off that subject, but every now and then he kind of ninjas in with this SURPRISE FAT SCARES ME thing and then I have to go curl up in a ball.

[watchcry.livejournal.com]

Phil needs to work a bit on his sweetheartisms. Liz sounds great though ^___^

[rainbowjehan.livejournal.com]

Phil is--Phil.

Liz is my new favourite person.